My depression has been heavy today. My PMS makes me much more susceptible to falling into this state, and the events of the last week have me primed with sadness. It is even harder when your partner struggles to understand the depression. For those of us who have depression, it takes a lot of time and vulnerability to try to educate our loved ones on how we feel and why. A lot of times, it won't sound logical but that doesn't mean it isn't very much our reality. As much as we would love for you to fully understand us, that may be too much to ask for. How do you truly understand something you've never experienced? Instead, my wish is for respect. Respect that this is real and I'm doing my best, even if none of it makes sense. Respect that I am very fragile when I am down. I feel isolated even though I know that there are many others who feel this exact same way. Everything feels heavy and otherwise simple tasks require precious energy. I know it is not easy for those of you who are in a relationship with someone who has a mental illness. I know it takes a lot of patience and compromise. I am proud of those who commit to the relationship, knowing the lows can be quite difficult for everyone involved. This is a part of my reality and therefore the reality of my friends and family. Thank you to everyone who sticks around and continues to support me, ugly tears and all ❤ I shared a cute Josie in a laptop bag instead of my sad face because I still want to try to spread joy to my friends.