I’ve been taking the usual constantly in pain, chronically ill life for granted and I didn’t realise that until now. Yes I can spend a whole week in bed unable to move. But then I still have some okay days where I can get out and maybe go for a drive and take the kids somewhere nice. I can sometimes water the flowers and plants, I can sometimes get myself in and out of the shower or bath. I can sometimes get myself dressed, wash up or cook etc. Obviously just sometimes 😂
At the moment I can’t do anything, I am completely relying on other people and it’s driving me a little mad. I managed to tear a ligament in my left ankle whilst spasming. It’s so painful and reminds me whenever I try to move of how painful it is.
It’s making me really, really think though. Like yes, being disabled and being constantly ill is awful. But sometimes I can still have a bit of independence. At the moment it’s 6 weeks non weight bearing, no driving, no putting my foot on the floor, walking etc. I rely solely on my partner and friends to do pretty much everything and that is something I am really struggling to come to terms with. But how lucky I am that this should only be like this for 6 weeks. It could be a lot worse!
I’m feeling grateful and I’m seeing the positives in everything that happens! 🥰🥰 I’m feeling grateful and positive that yes some days my legs don’t work, they give way, they spasm, the ache, they throb, they shake and jolt. But sometimes I can manage a little walk, sometimes i manage to walk up the stairs. Whilst having more of my freedom currently stripped away from me. I’m feeling thankful 🥰🥰