-how can i access more joy in my life?
-in my ongoing pursuit of sacred sensual and sexual pleasure, how can i invite in more adventure, more exploration and more freedom?
-and what is my relationship to enough?
the lessons that have been bestowed upon me this year have been invaluable. my ability to adapt and/or switch to what feels right and good for me is almost instantaneous— i lead with my intuition.
last night and most of today, i had a conversation with my friend about non-attachment and the awakenings that have come with it.
and my biggest takeaway has been this:
it is not the action of something that bothers us but instead it is the stories we create around those actions. it is the feeling of lack or the perceived absence of something that causes us to feel like we’re missing out.
socialization will influence our thought process, telling us that something is wrong when x, y, and z isnt being done how we feel it should be. we drum up all of these assumptions instead of understanding that
1. nothing is personal and,
2. no one owes us anything.
it is your job to choose you, cultivating your own inner peace.
non-attachment, at the deepest level, is about returning back to your highest self. letting go of the thoughts and emotions that create suffering.
i was in love with two people once; the language of non-monogamy wasn’t with me then as it is now. and even though that language still doesnt completely suit me, i understand the process of home. and what it means to two people who have been connected through soul magic.
these are my sunday thoughts while dating myself, reading in the park and buying sunflowers (because sunflowers are bringing me immense joy right now).
this week was also a reminder to spend more time with those who understand the complexities of my human nature. and INJOY it.
(also i didnt proofread so excuse the typos) 💋