I'm a night owl that's forcing herself to be a morning person to get uninterrupted time reading and writing. I wish I could say this scene is a daily occurrence, but it sure isn't. Less and less right now, which makes sense because my heart is jskfhfjvue. Mhm. Sounds about right.
Right now with the world the way it is, it matters to get some time with the One who provides peace. I know my heart needs a lot of it as I wade through my beliefs, other's beliefs, and how they can meld or clash. I keep asking God what it looks like for me to display love, and sometimes I am right on, but more often than not my opinion overshadows and causes me to shrink back, keeping any and all love in my pocket rather than giving it away. Scarcity. Ick.
God told me today that there are so many of His kids living life like they're not enough - thinking they're not good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, brave enough, kind enough, loving enough, capable enough, _______ enough. 🙋♀️ anyone struggling feeling not enough like me?
Let's not forget His power and strength and glory is on display through our weakness. If the world saw perfection in us (unattainable), what's the need for God in our lives beyond just getting us to Heaven one day? Perfection isn't the evidence of growth with Jesus, I'm willing to venture out and say the mess is evidence. It's proof we are dropping masks and letting down walls and struggling through uncomfortable things as we push forward trying to do and be and love better.
And in all of our striving for "enough" and "better", we can easily lose the time spent with God. If we could just do or be or say the right things, right?
What if it's all about being WITH instead of all the other stuff? Yes we try, and yes we grow and move and don't stay stagnant in ignorance and gross stuff, but truly being WITH God? Thats where the icky stuff gets surfaced and scrubbed, removed and replaced. Don't spend all your time trying to be like Jesus but forget to spend time with Him and know who He is (um, ouch, that ones for me 🙋♀️).