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  • It is HARD. It is hard to hold the grief in to avoid making people uncomfortable. It is hard to sit with people you love, who you know love you back, but who just can’t seem to find any words to comfort you in your grief. It is hard to sink in the silence, and know that they’ll (hopefully) never understand; to feel so completely underwater in the discomfort and pain; to steer the conversation to something more pleasant, or at least less devastating and heartbreaking, so they can keep swimming. It is hard to know that your people may not be your people in this journey of grief and loss. It is so hard. [We can do hard things. But they still suck.] The sunsets help. Thank you for each and every one of them, baby. 🌅

    It is HARD. It is hard to hold the grief in to avoid making people uncomfortable. It is hard to sit with people you love, who you know love you back, but who just can’t seem to find any words to comfort you in your grief. It is hard to sink in the silence, and know that they’ll (hopefully) never understand; to feel so completely underwater in the discomfort and pain; to steer the conversation to something more pleasant, or at least less devastating and heartbreaking, so they can keep swimming. It is hard to know that your people may not be your people in this journey of grief and loss. It is so hard. [We can do hard things. But they still suck.] The sunsets help. Thank you for each and every one of them, baby. 🌅



  • Brooklyn is our rainbow baby and as I was putting her pjs on it hit me that these are pjs we purchase for our baby we lost(our second miscarriage) and I just started crying( idk what hit me tonight bc she has worn them before) I cried because I honestly thought I would never have another baby in my arms. ❤ little break downs are ok & normal❤ I am one blessed mommy❤🌈 #rainbowbaby #miscarriageawareness

    Brooklyn is our rainbow baby and as I was putting her pjs on it hit me that these are pjs we purchase for our baby we lost(our second miscarriage) and I just started crying( idk what hit me tonight bc she has worn them before) I cried because I honestly thought I would never have another baby in my arms. ❤ little break downs are ok & normal❤ I am one blessed mommy❤🌈#rainbowbaby #miscarriageawareness

  • The universe provided me with many options. None of them included you. - Recka Starr Poetry . . . . . . . . . #reckastarrpoetry #grief #griefquotes #poetry #sadness #mixedemotions #feral #lostyou #love #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #angelbaby #westonraylien

    The universe provided me with many options. None of them included you. - Recka Starr Poetry . . . . . . . . .#reckastarrpoetry #grief #griefquotes #poetry #sadness #mixedemotions #feral #lostyou #love #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #angelbaby #westonraylien

  • Miscarriage (Part 3) I was finally pregnant y’all! Every year we go to Indiana for thanksgiving so I knew we would tell all of Amrits side then. I was about 5 weeks pregnant when we went and I was so excited. We ordered Chinese food for dinner and I had custom fortune cookies made for the whole family! The fortune said... “Will it wear Pink or will it wear Blue... all we know now is it’s Baby Babu! After dinner I gave everyone a fortune cookie and it was amazing to see their reactions. It was like a scene out of a movie, happiness, happy tears, hugs, and kisses. It was just how I imagined it. Now time to tell my side of the family. It was a week before Christmas and I invited everyone to Austin to celebrate Christmas with us. Besides my sister no one else knew and we planned on telling everyone on Christmas Day! We framed our sonogram and wrapped it up. We wrote a card to my mom and dad that said to Dada & Ba (grandma and grandpa) On Christmas morning it was happiness all over again!!! And then... All the family left and it was 3 days after Christmas. I went in for my regular doctor appointment with my OBGYN. The sonographer put her warm gel on my belly and looked for the baby like she always does. This time it was taking her a lot longer to do what she usually does. All she said was to hold on and she called the Doctor. My doctor walks in (the same one that confirmed my lump when I had cancer) and says... “I’m sorry there’s no heartbeat” What the heck was she talking about? How could I be 8 weeks pregnant and all of a sudden no heartbeat? I asked her to check again and again. My body felt numb and I couldn’t stop crying. I could see Amrit wiping away tears but trying to stay strong for me. What do you mean I had a miscarriage??!! According to her 1 out of 3 people have one and I wanted to know who these people are because I know a lot of people and no one I knew had one. I kept going over in my head what did I do to kill this baby? Was it the heavy boxes I lifted during Christmas? Was it something I ate? Was it stress? Was it Karma? Miscarriage is really common but people just don’t talk about it. To Be Continued.....

    Miscarriage (Part 3) I was finally pregnant y’all! Every year we go to Indiana for thanksgiving so I knew we would tell all of Amrits side then. I was about 5 weeks pregnant when we went and I was so excited. We ordered Chinese food for dinner and I had custom fortune cookies made for the whole family! The fortune said... “Will it wear Pink or will it wear Blue... all we know now is it’s Baby Babu! After dinner I gave everyone a fortune cookie and it was amazing to see their reactions. It was like a scene out of a movie, happiness, happy tears, hugs, and kisses. It was just how I imagined it. Now time to tell my side of the family. It was a week before Christmas and I invited everyone to Austin to celebrate Christmas with us. Besides my sister no one else knew and we planned on telling everyone on Christmas Day! We framed our sonogram and wrapped it up. We wrote a card to my mom and dad that said to Dada & Ba (grandma and grandpa) On Christmas morning it was happiness all over again!!! And then... All the family left and it was 3 days after Christmas. I went in for my regular doctor appointment with my OBGYN. The sonographer put her warm gel on my belly and looked for the baby like she always does. This time it was taking her a lot longer to do what she usually does. All she said was to hold on and she called the Doctor. My doctor walks in (the same one that confirmed my lump when I had cancer) and says... “I’m sorry there’s no heartbeat” What the heck was she talking about? How could I be 8 weeks pregnant and all of a sudden no heartbeat? I asked her to check again and again. My body felt numb and I couldn’t stop crying. I could see Amrit wiping away tears but trying to stay strong for me. What do you mean I had a miscarriage??!! According to her 1 out of 3 people have one and I wanted to know who these people are because I know a lot of people and no one I knew had one. I kept going over in my head what did I do to kill this baby? Was it the heavy boxes I lifted during Christmas? Was it something I ate? Was it stress? Was it Karma? Miscarriage is really common but people just don’t talk about it. To Be Continued.....

  • ...she knows what she wants. I tried writing a bit more about this photo but it always basically ended with that statement 😆. She’s too smart for her own good. She’s also very sweet beneath her small but mighty exterior. I later used that chalkboard to doodle and write her angel brothers names. She asked me what it said and as I told her she melted...she shrugged her shoulders, softened her eyes, and gratefully pierced her lips into a wide smile and leaped on me to hug me saying “ I just love my angel brothers “ in the sweetest lil baby voice 😭. It’s amazing how the heart can swell with the tiniest of unseen treasures at the tiniest of ages 🤍 #miscarriage #rainbowbaby

    ...she knows what she wants. I tried writing a bit more about this photo but it always basically ended with that statement 😆. She’s too smart for her own good. She’s also very sweet beneath her small but mighty exterior. I later used that chalkboard to doodle and write her angel brothers names. She asked me what it said and as I told her she melted...she shrugged her shoulders, softened her eyes, and gratefully pierced her lips into a wide smile and leaped on me to hug me saying “ I just love my angel brothers “ in the sweetest lil baby voice 😭. It’s amazing how the heart can swell with the tiniest of unseen treasures at the tiniest of ages 🤍 #miscarriage #rainbowbaby

  • Here we go again! 🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵 It’s time for IVF round 2! Yesterday was cd1, I had my baseline today, and Thursday I start stims! I have 26 antral follicles on my right ovary and 44 on my left, and we’ve increased my doses of gonal-f and menopur this round, so hopefully we get more eggs at retrieval this time! • I am a little bummed that they aren’t having me start stims until Thursday because I’m so excited to get started, and I’m mildly concerned (read: really concerned) that starting stims on cd4 could result in a lead follicle(s). But I know they need to stagger their starts and I’ve heard plenty of people start on day 4 and have no issues. • Lots of hope that round 2 brings us our rainbow 🌈 • 🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵 #infertility #infertilitysucks #secondaryinfertility #miscarriageawareness #infertilityawareness #ivf #ivfjourney #malefactorinfertility #ivfgotthis #infertilityjourney #ttcafterloss #ttcaftercancer #ttcrainbowbaby #makingababy #makingababywithscience #babydust #hopeful #ivfround2 #ivfmeds

    Here we go again! 🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵 It’s time for IVF round 2! Yesterday was cd1, I had my baseline today, and Thursday I start stims! I have 26 antral follicles on my right ovary and 44 on my left, and we’ve increased my doses of gonal-f and menopur this round, so hopefully we get more eggs at retrieval this time! • I am a little bummed that they aren’t having me start stims until Thursday because I’m so excited to get started, and I’m mildly concerned (read: really concerned) that starting stims on cd4 could result in a lead follicle(s). But I know they need to stagger their starts and I’ve heard plenty of people start on day 4 and have no issues. • Lots of hope that round 2 brings us our rainbow 🌈 • 🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵🌵#infertility #infertilitysucks #secondaryinfertility #miscarriageawareness #infertilityawareness #ivf #ivfjourney #malefactorinfertility #ivfgotthis #infertilityjourney #ttcafterloss #ttcaftercancer #ttcrainbowbaby #makingababy #makingababywithscience #babydust #hopeful #ivfround2 #ivfmeds


  • One year ago today we lost our first pregnancy. We had found out we were going to miscarry a few days earlier and waited for the process to start naturally. It was heart breaking and slow. There were times during those days where I thought it was all a dream. I couldn’t possibly be miscarrying, I was still pregnant! I dreamt the ultrasound was wrong and that everything was normal with our little bean. On 8/4/2019 the miscarriage happened bringing into stark reality the fact that the pregnancy was over. To remember the love for the family member we never met, Dylan has written his first blog post. He shares his experience with miscarriage as a husband. If you’re interested in reading his perspective, the link is in the bio or go to helloblancos.com. #miscarriageawareness #recurrentmiscarriage #linkinbio #foreverfamily

    One year ago today we lost our first pregnancy. We had found out we were going to miscarry a few days earlier and waited for the process to start naturally. It was heart breaking and slow. There were times during those days where I thought it was all a dream. I couldn’t possibly be miscarrying, I was still pregnant! I dreamt the ultrasound was wrong and that everything was normal with our little bean. On 8/4/2019 the miscarriage happened bringing into stark reality the fact that the pregnancy was over. To remember the love for the family member we never met, Dylan has written his first blog post. He shares his experience with miscarriage as a husband. If you’re interested in reading his perspective, the link is in the bio or go to helloblancos.com. #miscarriageawareness #recurrentmiscarriage #linkinbio #foreverfamily

  • 𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑 𝗪𝐇𝐘 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐃...⁣ ⁣ In the past when things got hard or there was even the slightest inconvenience in my life it was extremely easy for me to get discouraged and to just throw in the towel. ⁣ ⁣ However, through personal development to work on my mindset, increasing my confidence, and overall transforming my life while on this health & wellness journey I am now more easily able to handle when life throws curve balls. ⁣ ⁣ I am now able to remind myself of why I began this journey to begin with and what my goals are, which 𝐈 𝗪𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐍𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐔𝐏 𝐎𝐍! I began this journey for fitness & nutrition and 𝐈 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐆𝐎𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐎 𝐌𝐔𝐂𝐇 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓!⁣ ⁣ 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝: ⁣ -Health & Happiness⁣ -A healthy & well balanced lifestyle⁣ -A new found belief in myself⁣ -A new positive outlook on life⁣ -Bigger dreams & the confidence to chase them & make them a reality⁣ ⁣ 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐈 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐃 an inspiring coach @meghan.gunn and an amazing sisterhood of support & friendship that has carried me through some hard times and I honestly dont know where I would be without them! ⁣ ⁣ I have gotten so much more from this health & wellness journey than what I began this journey searching for! This journey is so much more than fitness & nutrition. It is a totally different way of life with a sisterhood of support to do life alongside! ⁣ ⁣ I am personally inviting you to join this sisterhood and begin to dream big with us. When women from all walks of life link hands and support each other amazing things happen...lives are changed! If you are ready to change your life, dream big, reach your goals and gain a sisterhood of friends send me a message and I would love to chat about this opportunity!

    𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐄𝐑 𝗪𝐇𝐘 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐃...⁣ ⁣ In the past when things got hard or there was even the slightest inconvenience in my life it was extremely easy for me to get discouraged and to just throw in the towel. ⁣ ⁣ However, through personal development to work on my mindset, increasing my confidence, and overall transforming my life while on this health & wellness journey I am now more easily able to handle when life throws curve balls. ⁣ ⁣ I am now able to remind myself of why I began this journey to begin with and what my goals are, which 𝐈 𝗪𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐍𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐔𝐏 𝐎𝐍! I began this journey for fitness & nutrition and 𝐈 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐆𝐎𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐎 𝐌𝐔𝐂𝐇 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓!⁣ ⁣ 𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝: ⁣ -Health & Happiness⁣ -A healthy & well balanced lifestyle⁣ -A new found belief in myself⁣ -A new positive outlook on life⁣ -Bigger dreams & the confidence to chase them & make them a reality⁣ ⁣ 𝐁𝐔𝐓 𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐈 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐃 an inspiring coach @meghan.gunn and an amazing sisterhood of support & friendship that has carried me through some hard times and I honestly don't know where I would be without them! ⁣ ⁣ I have gotten so much more from this health & wellness journey than what I began this journey searching for! This journey is so much more than fitness & nutrition. It is a totally different way of life with a sisterhood of support to do life alongside! ⁣ ⁣ I am personally inviting you to join this sisterhood and begin to dream big with us. When women from all walks of life link hands and support each other amazing things happen...lives are changed! If you are ready to change your life, dream big, reach your goals and gain a sisterhood of friends send me a message and I would love to chat about this opportunity!

  • I’ve been wrestling with how to process our third miscarriage. I was lucky enough to have a successful first IUI in June 2017 which resulted in this perfect little poppet. And for that I am the luckiest mama in the world and so thankful. There are so many of you who are still waiting on your perfect baby and my heart aches for you! Sometimes our daughter has been my only saving grace amidst this heartache. Sometimes I feel guilty for being so invested in trying to conceive baby number two when I have what so many dream of - a happy, healthy child. But our family doesn’t feel complete. We so badly want a sibling for Callie and trying to navigate 4 failed IUIs, 2 failed transfers and 3 miscarriages all while trying to be a mama to this girl has been HARD! I feel at times I’ve failed her as a mother because IVF is like a full time job! (On top of a real full time job) But I’m not ready to give up the dream of growing our family! For now, as I process the heartbreak of a 3rd loss for no known reason, I’m thankful for this sweet face and continue to remind myself that even if I never get to carry another baby, this girl will always be enough! I love you Callie Aurora! 💗 #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #recurrentmiscarriage #ivf #ivfjourney #ivfwarrior #ivfcommunity #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #infertilitywarrior #unexplainedinfertility

    I’ve been wrestling with how to process our third miscarriage. I was lucky enough to have a successful first IUI in June 2017 which resulted in this perfect little poppet. And for that I am the luckiest mama in the world and so thankful. There are so many of you who are still waiting on your perfect baby and my heart aches for you! Sometimes our daughter has been my only saving grace amidst this heartache. Sometimes I feel guilty for being so invested in trying to conceive baby number two when I have what so many dream of - a happy, healthy child. But our family doesn’t feel complete. We so badly want a sibling for Callie and trying to navigate 4 failed IUIs, 2 failed transfers and 3 miscarriages all while trying to be a mama to this girl has been HARD! I feel at times I’ve failed her as a mother because IVF is like a full time job! (On top of a real full time job) But I’m not ready to give up the dream of growing our family! For now, as I process the heartbreak of a 3rd loss for no known reason, I’m thankful for this sweet face and continue to remind myself that even if I never get to carry another baby, this girl will always be enough! I love you Callie Aurora! 💗#miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #recurrentmiscarriage #ivf #ivfjourney #ivfwarrior #ivfcommunity #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #infertilitywarrior #unexplainedinfertility

  • I would’ve been in my second trimester by now. I would’ve already announced your presence in the world, started working on your nursery... I would’ve continued doing everything that I was before your heart stopped. No one can prepare you for the heartache that comes from losing a child. From seeing that that little flutter on the ultrasound machine one day, then nothing the next... Sometimes I feel like I’m fine, but then something reminds me of you and I think about how you’ll never be. If only my love could’ve saved you... #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagesurvivor #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #iam1in4

    I would’ve been in my second trimester by now. I would’ve already announced your presence in the world, started working on your nursery... I would’ve continued doing everything that I was before your heart stopped. No one can prepare you for the heartache that comes from losing a child. From seeing that that little flutter on the ultrasound machine one day, then nothing the next... Sometimes I feel like I’m fine, but then something reminds me of you and I think about how you’ll never be. If only my love could’ve saved you... #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagesurvivor #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #iam1in4

  • Cant believe its already 1 year since our little mans TRANSFER DAY 🎉. Little miracle baby Hendrix 🖤🖤🖤. Words from my beautiful/courageous wife @christina_chloe_stylist >>> I remember waking on the 5th of August last year, I was excited and terrified all at the same time. Our last chance at pregnancy, my heart couldn’t take anymore, my body felt exhausted and our finances had depleted! We had so much faith in @fertility_queen_dr_burmeister I felt if anyone was going to achieve a successful pregnancy for us without a miscarriage it would be her so we jumped in the car the 3 of us full of hope and faith that this was it! That embryo we transferred is now our darling rainbow baby, he fills our hearts with such love and joy a true miracle mixed with a bit of science and alot of Dr Lynn Burmeister! Happy transfer day my angel we will forever be so so grateful for that faithful day, you are our baby dream come true! .. #rivertheodore #hendrixjohn #ivfjourney #transferday #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #infertility #ivfbaby #ivf #ivfsuccess #ivfsupport #hyperemesisgravidarum

    Cant believe its already 1 year since our little mans TRANSFER DAY 🎉. Little miracle baby Hendrix 🖤🖤🖤. Words from my beautiful/courageous wife @christina_chloe_stylist >>> I remember waking on the 5th of August last year, I was excited and terrified all at the same time. Our last chance at pregnancy, my heart couldn’t take anymore, my body felt exhausted and our finances had depleted! We had so much faith in @fertility_queen_dr_burmeister I felt if anyone was going to achieve a successful pregnancy for us without a miscarriage it would be her so we jumped in the car the 3 of us full of hope and faith that this was it! That embryo we transferred is now our darling rainbow baby, he fills our hearts with such love and joy a true miracle mixed with a bit of science and alot of Dr Lynn Burmeister! Happy transfer day my angel we will forever be so so grateful for that faithful day, you are our baby dream come true! ..#rivertheodore #hendrixjohn #ivfjourney #transferday #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #infertility #ivfbaby #ivf #ivfsuccess #ivfsupport #hyperemesisgravidarum

  • 💭 For a time I was alone in my pain, hiding out because I didn’t want to talk about it. Now that I’ve opened up, I hear a lot of #metoo s I suppose it takes bravery to open up and air out wounds from a war that’s been raging in my body and Im not quite sure what to say or how: I had a miscarriage and my sweet baby went to heaven 💔😔 I was completely unprepared for losing my baby and the brutality of how it ended. The truth is that 1 in 5 pregnancies end in miscarriage and 30% of couples are having fertility issues. To me this are shocking figures. It’s something I would like to discuss more with my female friends Because I don’t think it’s talked about enough. My hope is that being vulnerable with my pain will allow you to be as well and I can listen to you with compassion, strength, and unity. That you know what ever battle you are facing, that you’re not alone. I’ve learned so much in these past months, mainly how painting is connected to my healing process and how important female friendships are and how grateful I am for such a supportive, loving tribe!! I recently heard someone say that “you cannot fulfill your purpose (in life) until until you’ve found your people”. Such a perfect way to translate how important the supportive people are in my life and how thankful I am for so many friends, mentors, healers, family members and others who pour love into my life. They encourage me to trust in God’s plan for my life, continue healing and devote more energy into myself, my family, my artwork and growing my business as a health advocate. 🤩🤍✨ With this loss there is so much to gain. I’ve truly gained so much wisdom and confidence from my loving, empowering, passionate supportive friends Who stand beside me (you know who you all are!!) pray for me and cheer me on as I continue to reach for my stars ✨ and my dreams 🌠 Xo

    💭 For a time I was alone in my pain, hiding out because I didn’t want to talk about it. Now that I’ve opened up, I hear a lot of #metoo s I suppose it takes bravery to open up and air out wounds from a war that’s been raging in my body and Im not quite sure what to say or how: I had a miscarriage and my sweet baby went to heaven 💔😔 I was completely unprepared for losing my baby and the brutality of how it ended. The truth is that 1 in 5 pregnancies end in miscarriage and 30% of couples are having fertility issues. To me this are shocking figures. It’s something I would like to discuss more with my female friends Because I don’t think it’s talked about enough. My hope is that being vulnerable with my pain will allow you to be as well and I can listen to you with compassion, strength, and unity. That you know what ever battle you are facing, that you’re not alone. I’ve learned so much in these past months, mainly how painting is connected to my healing process and how important female friendships are and how grateful I am for such a supportive, loving tribe!! I recently heard someone say that “you cannot fulfill your purpose (in life) until until you’ve found your people”. Such a perfect way to translate how important the supportive people are in my life and how thankful I am for so many friends, mentors, healers, family members and others who pour love into my life. They encourage me to trust in God’s plan for my life, continue healing and devote more energy into myself, my family, my artwork and growing my business as a health advocate. 🤩🤍✨ With this loss there is so much to gain. I’ve truly gained so much wisdom and confidence from my loving, empowering, passionate supportive friends Who stand beside me (you know who you all are!!) pray for me and cheer me on as I continue to reach for my stars ✨ and my dreams 🌠 Xo

  • Its been a minute, but I finally have another recipe vid up 🤯 Swipe to get a sneak peek of my teriyaki bowl! . ❤️ Chicken 💚 Broccoli 💛 Brown rice 🧡 Teriyaki sauce . Bookmark and save for later! Full video is up on my TikTok which is linked in my bio 😘 . Ive decided my TikTok is going to be where I share full recipes from now and some self love messages 💕. It just feels good there. . . Oh and update on this 1800-2099 calorie thing...Im actually eating it all and getting hungry every two hours 😶 . Im starting to think I shouldve bumped up to my surplus bracket a long time ago 😂 . Because even though I didnt sleep well at all last night, I still have the energy to get through an entire day. . And thats what this food plan teaches you 🥑. How to eat in a way that gives you sustained energy throughout the day with balanced macros at every meal 🍲. . Eventually...once I get pregnant and stay pregnant...when I get to that point where I need to adjust my eating habits to whatever baby needs🤰, Ill be able to refer back to the Pre- and Postnatal section of program. And then combine it with the Pre- and Postnatal 12 month program that just dropped 🎉 . Literally could not ask for a better life resource because they have EVERYTHING covered 🙏 . For now though? Just focusing on me, my personal health, and healing what I can with the vitamins, minerals, and nutrients I can stick in my mouth. Because #foodheals . New mamas-to-be 📣! Where are you turning to for your pregnancy resources?? Would love to get more ideas! #CATCHFIREHEART . . . . . #foodismedicine #easyrecipes #foodforfoodies #miscarriage #healthyrecipes #miscarriageawareness #cleaneats #cleanrecipes #fitnessgoals #girlswholift

    It's been a minute, but I finally have another recipe vid up 🤯 Swipe to get a sneak peek of my teriyaki bowl! . ❤️ Chicken 💚 Broccoli 💛 Brown rice 🧡 Teriyaki sauce . Bookmark and save for later! Full video is up on my TikTok which is linked in my bio 😘 . I've decided my TikTok is going to be where I share full recipes from now and some self love messages 💕. It just feels good there. . . Oh and update on this 1800-2099 calorie thing...I'm actually eating it all and getting hungry every two hours 😶 . I'm starting to think I should've bumped up to my surplus bracket a long time ago 😂 . Because even though I didn't sleep well at all last night, I still have the energy to get through an entire day. . And that's what this food plan teaches you 🥑. How to eat in a way that gives you sustained energy throughout the day with balanced macros at every meal 🍲. . Eventually...once I get pregnant and stay pregnant...when I get to that point where I need to adjust my eating habits to whatever baby needs🤰, I'll be able to refer back to the Pre- and Postnatal section of program. And then combine it with the Pre- and Postnatal 12 month program that just dropped 🎉 . Literally could not ask for a better life resource because they have EVERYTHING covered 🙏 . For now though? Just focusing on me, my personal health, and healing what I can with the vitamins, minerals, and nutrients I can stick in my mouth. Because #foodheals . New mamas-to-be 📣! Where are you turning to for your pregnancy resources?? Would love to get more ideas!#catchfireheart . . . . .#foodismedicine #easyrecipes #foodforfoodies #miscarriage #healthyrecipes #miscarriageawareness #cleaneats #cleanrecipes #fitnessgoals #girlswholift

  • everyday is better when i’m with you❤️ Holding Kali is my new drug of choice, she makes all the stress, lack of sleep, and pain simply fade away... my tiny girl loves to be snuggled up with mama #micropreemiewarriors #micropreemiemommy #preemiestrong #preemiebabies #nicu #nicumom #nicubaby #niculife #preeclampsia #preemiemom #preemiehood #infertilitysuccess #infertilityawareness #miscarriageawareness #pregnantafterinfertility #infertilityjourney #kangaroocare #mommyhood #mother #motherhood #mommysgirl🎀

    everyday is better when i’m with you❤️ Holding Kali is my new drug of choice, she makes all the stress, lack of sleep, and pain simply fade away... my tiny girl loves to be snuggled up with mama #micropreemiewarriors #micropreemiemommy #preemiestrong #preemiebabies #nicu #nicumom #nicubaby #niculife #preeclampsia #preemiemom #preemiehood #infertilitysuccess #infertilityawareness #miscarriageawareness #pregnantafterinfertility #infertilityjourney #kangaroocare #mommyhood #mother #motherhood #mommysgirl 🎀

  • We’re beyond happy to announce baby A coming in January 2021! 2020 has been one helluva ride in many ways. Despite all that has been going on in the world, we are feeling very blessed with our rainbow baby 🌈 👶🏻 There have been so many emotions playing into this pregnancy; mostly excitement, but also fear, worry, anxiety. I really feel for everyone who has been in these shoes & those still struggling. I only hope everything plays out perfect for us and for the rest of y’all. ❤️

    We’re beyond happy to announce baby A coming in January 2021! 2020 has been one helluva ride in many ways. Despite all that has been going on in the world, we are feeling very blessed with our rainbow baby 🌈 👶🏻 There have been so many emotions playing into this pregnancy; mostly excitement, but also fear, worry, anxiety. I really feel for everyone who has been in these shoes & those still struggling. I only hope everything plays out perfect for us and for the rest of y’all. ❤️

  • About a month ago, I sat down with the host of a NEW podcast! Those who have been following me for awhile know that Henri and I have been on a winding fertility journey. It’s been filled with hard seasons of waiting, a diagnosis of “unexplained infertility,” the spontaneous conception of Ella, medical unknowns, IUIs, an overseas miscarriage, and the conception of baby girl #2 (Nadia) due in November 2020. ⁣ ⁣⁣ In talking with Joy Van Staalduinen, the host of Love & Loss (a podcast for and by women who have experienced infant loss), I share about the twists and turns along our journey to conceive. Joy and I are both pregnant in the wake of miscarriage currently and it was so cathartic to chat together about what that experience is like. In the episode, we dive into...⁣ ⁣⁣ - How we narrate our motherhood and experience of miscarriage/loss⁣ - How the trauma of loss affects the way in which we now carry life in pregnancy⁣ - The spiritual ups and downs I had through our fertility journey⁣ - Things we wish people would stop saying to women who are TTC or grieving⁣ ⁣⁣ Whether you are TTC, on a fertility journey, pregnant, mothering or know someone in any of those stages of life, I invite you to pull up a seat alongside us. This episode is honest and raw, and I pray it provides solidarity, comfort, and hope for others.⁣ ⁣⁣ TO LISTEN:⁣ ⁣⁣ Link in my bio — Tap the link and swipe left twice to get to the Podcast Interviews page. ⁣ ⁣⁣ You can also look up Love & Loss by Joy Van Staalduinen wherever you listen to your podcasts.⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ ⁣⁣ #infertilityawareness #infertilityjourney #infertilitycommunity #infertilitysucks #fertilityjourney #secondaryinfertility #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #tcctriber #ttcsupport #ivfcommunity #ivfjourney #miscarriagesupport #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #grief #ihadamiscarriage #infertility #pregnantafterinfertility #rainbowbaby #ttc #unexplainedinfertility #tccsisters #ttcafterloss #pcosfighter #ivf #tryingtoconceive #infertilitysisters #iuijourney

    About a month ago, I sat down with the host of a NEW podcast! Those who have been following me for awhile know that Henri and I have been on a winding fertility journey. It’s been filled with hard seasons of waiting, a diagnosis of “unexplained infertility,” the spontaneous conception of Ella, medical unknowns, IUIs, an overseas miscarriage, and the conception of baby girl #2 (Nadia) due in November 2020. ⁣ ⁣⁣ In talking with Joy Van Staalduinen, the host of Love & Loss (a podcast for and by women who have experienced infant loss), I share about the twists and turns along our journey to conceive. Joy and I are both pregnant in the wake of miscarriage currently and it was so cathartic to chat together about what that experience is like. In the episode, we dive into...⁣ ⁣⁣ - How we narrate our motherhood and experience of miscarriage/loss⁣ - How the trauma of loss affects the way in which we now carry life in pregnancy⁣ - The spiritual ups and downs I had through our fertility journey⁣ - Things we wish people would stop saying to women who are TTC or grieving⁣ ⁣⁣ Whether you are TTC, on a fertility journey, pregnant, mothering or know someone in any of those stages of life, I invite you to pull up a seat alongside us. This episode is honest and raw, and I pray it provides solidarity, comfort, and hope for others.⁣ ⁣⁣ TO LISTEN:⁣ ⁣⁣ Link in my bio — Tap the link and swipe left twice to get to the Podcast Interviews page. ⁣ ⁣⁣ You can also look up Love & Loss by Joy Van Staalduinen wherever you listen to your podcasts.⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ .⁣ ⁣⁣#infertilityawareness #infertilityjourney #infertilitycommunity #infertilitysucks #fertilityjourney #secondaryinfertility #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #tcctriber #ttcsupport #ivfcommunity #ivfjourney #miscarriagesupport #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #grief #ihadamiscarriage #infertility #pregnantafterinfertility #rainbowbaby #ttc #unexplainedinfertility #tccsisters #ttcafterloss #pcosfighter #ivf #tryingtoconceive #infertilitysisters #iuijourney

  • My first weekend away from this crazy life Ive been trying to navigate through. We were on our way to a friends trailer, and looking forward to relaxing. I felt cramps all morning, after talking to my OB during the week for my last follow up, she said I should be getting my first period soon if I had been cramping. Talking to my dear friend, who has been going on this journey as well, she told me she got her first period. 2 hours into the drive we finally found somewhere to pee, honestly not thinking I would have got it. It ruined my underwear and ruined my shorts and honestly ruined my day. I had nothing on me in the gas station, and I wasnt waiting in line again. So i just sat there and would deal with it when I get to the trailer. We had to stop at a grocery store to grab some fruit, and then it all hit me. This is the final story book ending to my first pregnancy. The physical loss of my baby has ended, and I broke down, silently in line. Holding myself together as I walk out and to the car. My husband could tell something was wrong but I kept saying," I am fine, I will deal with it when we get there". With my sunglasses on, we drive away, and I silently break down, not wanting to worry him, I dont want to distract him from driving. But then I couldnt hold it in anymore. I think it was hard for him to understand my break down, my heart hurting more than usual that day. To him me getting my period means we are able to try again when we are ready. But to me, it was an end to a chapter. The final nail on the straw of this is over for me, that I wanted this baby, I wanted to have the baby in me while we are up here, that I dont want to try again because we shouldnt have to try again. It was the anger of my body and why I couldnt carry the baby. It was a bunch of things that sometimes words cant form and I only express through tears. #miscarriage #pregnancy #pregnancyloss #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #myjourney #miscarriagesurvivors #family #infantandpregnancylossawarenes #grief #loss #healing #personaldays #putyourselffirst

    My first weekend away from this crazy life I've been trying to navigate through. We were on our way to a friends trailer, and looking forward to relaxing. I felt cramps all morning, after talking to my OB during the week for my last follow up, she said I should be getting my first period soon if I had been cramping. Talking to my dear friend, who has been going on this journey as well, she told me she got her first period. 2 hours into the drive we finally found somewhere to pee, honestly not thinking I would have got it. It ruined my underwear and ruined my shorts and honestly ruined my day. I had nothing on me in the gas station, and I wasn't waiting in line again. So i just sat there and would deal with it when I get to the trailer. We had to stop at a grocery store to grab some fruit, and then it all hit me. This is the final story book ending to my first pregnancy. The physical loss of my baby has ended, and I broke down, silently in line. Holding myself together as I walk out and to the car. My husband could tell something was wrong but I kept saying," I am fine, I will deal with it when we get there". With my sunglasses on, we drive away, and I silently break down, not wanting to worry him, I dont want to distract him from driving. But then I couldnt hold it in anymore. I think it was hard for him to understand my break down, my heart hurting more than usual that day. To him me getting my period means we are able to try again when we are ready. But to me, it was an end to a chapter. The final nail on the straw of this is over for me, that I wanted this baby, I wanted to have the baby in me while we are up here, that I dont want to try again because we shouldn't have to try again. It was the anger of my body and why I couldnt carry the baby. It was a bunch of things that sometimes words cant form and I only express through tears.#miscarriage #pregnancy #pregnancyloss #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #myjourney #miscarriagesurvivors #family #infantandpregnancylossawarenes #grief #loss #healing #personaldays #putyourselffirst

  • Mitochondria are often called the powerhouses of the cell. ⁠ ⁠ Why are they important? ⁠ ⁠ They are providing energy for you and your cells to function as they need to. ⁠ ⁠ Furthermore, relating to fertility, the female egg (a cell) contains more mitochondria than other cell types. And female egg goes through many complex changes before ovulation, it needs energy for fertilization, early embryo development and implantation.⁠ ⁠ With men, your mitochondrial health has been linked to sperm quality and function. ⁠ ⁠ So, basically, you want mums and dads mitochondria to be working well to help make a healthy baby!⁠ ⁠ And what makes mitochondria NOT work properly? Toxins (such as pollutants, heavy metals, and alcohol), oxidative stress, prescription medications, inflammation, and insulin resistance all play a part in reducing the function of your mitochondria. So, much of that relates back to what youre eating (or not eating) and environmental factors, and lifestyle. ⁠ ⁠ There are also very specific nutrients and herbs that help support the health of your mitochondria. ⁠ CoQ10, Resveratrol, Vit E, Lipoic Acid, N-Acetyl Cysteine, and more!⁠

    Mitochondria are often called the 'powerhouses' of the cell. ⁠ ⁠ Why are they important? ⁠ ⁠ They are providing energy for you and your cells to function as they need to. ⁠ ⁠ Furthermore, relating to fertility, the female egg (a cell) contains more mitochondria than other cell types. And female egg goes through many complex changes before ovulation, it needs energy for fertilization, early embryo development and implantation.⁠ ⁠ With men, your mitochondrial health has been linked to sperm quality and function. ⁠ ⁠ So, basically, you want mums and dad's mitochondria to be working well to help make a healthy baby!⁠ ⁠ And what makes mitochondria NOT work properly? Toxins (such as pollutants, heavy metals, and alcohol), oxidative stress, prescription medications, inflammation, and insulin resistance all play a part in reducing the function of your mitochondria. So, much of that relates back to what you're eating (or not eating) and environmental factors, and lifestyle. ⁠ ⁠ There are also very specific nutrients and herbs that help support the health of your mitochondria. ⁠ CoQ10, Resveratrol, Vit E, Lipoic Acid, N-Acetyl Cysteine, and more!⁠

  • Another workout in the dust!! I am struggling with the loss of a pregnancy several weeks ago. I’m struggling with the loss of my grandparents. I’m struggling with not comfort eating. I’m struggling with my anger. I need a way to control it. Eating makes me feel great in the moment, but it doesn’t make me feel great putting on clothes. I’m working on finding an outlet for my anger, my sadness, my anxiety and my pain. Trying different work outs and remembering that those 20-30 minutes away from my family are okay. I need to moments. #growing #miscarriageawareness #misscariagesurvivor #alzheimerssucks #alzheimerssucks #gainedweight #athomeworkouts #beachbodyondemand

    Another workout in the dust!! I am struggling with the loss of a pregnancy several weeks ago. I’m struggling with the loss of my grandparents. I’m struggling with not comfort eating. I’m struggling with my anger. I need a way to control it. Eating makes me feel great in the moment, but it doesn’t make me feel great putting on clothes. I’m working on finding an outlet for my anger, my sadness, my anxiety and my pain. Trying different work outs and remembering that those 20-30 minutes away from my family are okay. I need to moments. #growing #miscarriageawareness #misscariagesurvivor #alzheimerssucks #alzheimerssucks #gainedweight #athomeworkouts #beachbodyondemand

  • *disclaimer* old tests. not pregnant! i still have the positive pregnancy tests from last november. i keep them in a drawer and look at them when i’m down! it’s ok to be sad sometimes! but it’s also a reminder of what was once a very happy time. one of them still has the line(😱), but the other’s digital message of “Pregnant” has long faded away. Sending positive vibes and good luck to everyone in a new cycle 💕 #ttc #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsupport #ttcaftermiscarriage #miscarriageawareness #missedmiscarriage #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #infertilityjourney

    *disclaimer* old tests. not pregnant! i still have the positive pregnancy tests from last november. i keep them in a drawer and look at them when i’m down! it’s ok to be sad sometimes! but it’s also a reminder of what was once a very happy time. one of them still has the line(😱), but the other’s digital message of “Pregnant” has long faded away. Sending positive vibes and good luck to everyone in a new cycle 💕 #ttc #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsupport #ttcaftermiscarriage #miscarriageawareness #missedmiscarriage #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #infertilityjourney

  • The Story I Tell by @hannahshousecov . “Happy 3rd birthday Emelia Isabelle 💛 I love you, I miss you. Your 57 minutes on this earth changed us, you’re the reason I look for the good in everything.” . On a Sunday evening I’m looking back Over all the years And where I’ve been Looking at old photographs I’m remembering You were right there And You have been ever since With every page that turns I see Your faithfulness The mountain where I climbed The Valley where I fell You were there all along That’s the story I’ll tell You brought the pieces together Made me this storyteller Now I know it is well, it is well That’s the story I’ll tell There were some nights that felt like They would last forever But You kept me breathing You were with me right then And all that You have done for me I could never hold it in So here’s to me telling this story Over and over again You hold the broken You hear my every cry My eyes are open I know that it is well It is well Poem and image by @hannahshousecov . . . Do you want to share your story of grief, grace, and hope after pregnancy or baby loss? Tag us @ourscarlettstories to be featured. 🖤 _ #ourscarlettstories #gracelikescarlett

    The Story I Tell by @hannahshousecov . “Happy 3rd birthday Emelia Isabelle 💛 I love you, I miss you. Your 57 minutes on this earth changed us, you’re the reason I look for the good in everything.” . On a Sunday evening I’m looking back Over all the years And where I’ve been Looking at old photographs I’m remembering You were right there And You have been ever since With every page that turns I see Your faithfulness The mountain where I climbed The Valley where I fell You were there all along That’s the story I’ll tell You brought the pieces together Made me this storyteller Now I know it is well, it is well That’s the story I’ll tell There were some nights that felt like They would last forever But You kept me breathing You were with me right then And all that You have done for me I could never hold it in So here’s to me telling this story Over and over again You hold the broken You hear my every cry My eyes are open I know that it is well It is well Poem and image by @hannahshousecov . . . Do you want to share your story of grief, grace, and hope after pregnancy or baby loss? Tag us @ourscarlettstories to be featured. 🖤 _#ourscarlettstories #gracelikescarlett

  • Transformation Tuesday with a bit of a different take... 🌱❤️ The picture on the left was taken 3 years ago, a couple of days after our first miscarriage. Its not a pretty picture, but I remember taking it as proof to myself that I was able to get up and out of the house for a walk with Meredith. That, despite my pain and uncertainty, the sun would continue to rise, and that the world would keep turning. But it was SO hard to embody that feeling of hope... mostly because I felt like I had to hold it all in alone. 3 years later now with my sweet rainbow baby girl on my hip, I know that strength does not come from stuffing down emotions. Yes, joy comes in the morning and a positive mindset is necessary for growth, but it doesnt mean you cant feel. I still struggle with this balance at times, but the difference is that I am confident and healthy enough now to reach out for support (and have found that in SO many unexpected places, especially in my coaching and wellness community). I can push myself through the inevitable roadblocks of life (hello, global pandemic) because I know that I CAN, all while being raw and transparent. ❤️ You can too. Take care of yourself. Reach out if you need help. Starting can be the hardest place, but its where healing begins. Youve got this. 💪

    Transformation Tuesday with a bit of a different take... 🌱❤️ The picture on the left was taken 3 years ago, a couple of days after our first miscarriage. It's not a pretty picture, but I remember taking it as proof to myself that I was able to get up and out of the house for a walk with Meredith. That, despite my pain and uncertainty, the sun would continue to rise, and that the world would keep turning. But it was SO hard to embody that feeling of hope... mostly because I felt like I had to hold it all in alone. 3 years later now with my sweet rainbow baby girl on my hip, I know that strength does not come from stuffing down emotions. Yes, joy comes in the morning and a positive mindset is necessary for growth, but it doesn't mean you can't feel. I still struggle with this balance at times, but the difference is that I am confident and healthy enough now to reach out for support (and have found that in SO many unexpected places, especially in my coaching and wellness community). I can push myself through the inevitable roadblocks of life (hello, global pandemic) because I know that I CAN, all while being raw and transparent. ❤️ You can too. Take care of yourself. Reach out if you need help. Starting can be the hardest place, but it's where healing begins. You've got this. 💪

  • New releases tomorrow!! Who’s ready?!? 🙋🏻‍♀️💜

    New releases tomorrow!! Who’s ready?!? 🙋🏻‍♀️💜

  • So proud of Carina, for telling her story. Swipe right to read her testimony. // More women than we know experience the loss of a pregnancy and many women struggle with conceiving. This can take an emotional toll that is much more painful than many could ever understand. Since we are young girls we experience physical pain every month, for nine months are able to carry another life, birth a child, sometimes raising it alone. The tribulations of a woman are never ending. We should all honor our mothers, our aunts, our sisters, our grandmothers... and so on. And if you are a woman please HONOR YOURSELF. We go through way more than we show and for that we are strong. My heart goes out to every woman today that has experienced the loss of their unborn child. You are still a mommy, and I celebrate you. 🤍 #womenempowerment #miscarriageawareness #womenempowerwomen #womeninspiringwomen

    So proud of Carina, for telling her story. Swipe right to read her testimony. // More women than we know experience the loss of a pregnancy and many women struggle with conceiving. This can take an emotional toll that is much more painful than many could ever understand. Since we are young girls we experience physical pain every month, for nine months are able to carry another life, birth a child, sometimes raising it alone. The tribulations of a woman are never ending. We should all honor our mothers, our aunts, our sisters, our grandmothers... and so on. And if you are a woman please HONOR YOURSELF. We go through way more than we show and for that we are strong. My heart goes out to every woman today that has experienced the loss of their unborn child. You are still a mommy, and I celebrate you. 🤍 #womenempowerment #miscarriageawareness #womenempowerwomen #womeninspiringwomen

  • A LOT can change in four years. Four years ago. I was dealing with finding out about my diagnosis of lupus. I lost SO MUCH weight. I was having seizures. It was the second most difficult moment in my life. The first was losing my son, Ragnar Maverick, this past December. I don’t even remember that girl on the left. That was such a different time; even though it wasn’t that long ago. I have changed so much. For the better. I have learned to ride the waves of life - though sometimes they drag me into the undertow. I know that I can make it back to the shore. Progress - not perfection - is the motto I live by. I am always working on myself. #progressnotperfection #progressoverperfection #selfgrowthjourney #lupusawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #miscarriageawareness #lifecoachforwomen #norsemythology #ragnar #busywomanslifestyle #recoverywarrior

    A LOT can change in four years. Four years ago. I was dealing with finding out about my diagnosis of lupus. I lost SO MUCH weight. I was having seizures. It was the second most difficult moment in my life. The first was losing my son, Ragnar Maverick, this past December. I don’t even remember that girl on the left. That was such a different time; even though it wasn’t that long ago. I have changed so much. For the better. I have learned to ride the waves of life - though sometimes they drag me into the undertow. I know that I can make it back to the shore. Progress - not perfection - is the motto I live by. I am always working on myself. #progressnotperfection #progressoverperfection #selfgrowthjourney #lupusawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #miscarriageawareness #lifecoachforwomen #norsemythology #ragnar #busywomanslifestyle #recoverywarrior

  • This week is all about self-care, and allowing my self to feel excited despite the fear. The last time we were prepping for a transfer, I would feel guilty allowing myself to put off things that I thought needed to be done for things that I needed done for myself. So, I ended up being an anxious wreck. I couldn’t appreciate the gift I had been given, and that we had gotten the furthest we ever had. It got even worse when pregnant. I was constantly waiting for something to go wrong, because it usually did. That stole all the joy from that pregnancy. So, this time I made a promise to myself to be different. I would take the time I needed to be in a good headspace. I stopped looking at it as being selfish. I started realizing that if I invested that time in myself, then I could be a better wife, dog mama, friend, daughter. So... The dishes may stay in the sink a little longer I may not have a food stocked fridge I may take a mental health day off work And. That’s. Ok! I am happy. I am excited. I am hopeful. I am grateful. #ivf #ivfwarrior #infertility #infertilityawareness #diminishedovarianreserve #lowamh #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #frozenembryotransfer

    This week is all about self-care, and allowing my self to feel excited despite the fear. The last time we were prepping for a transfer, I would feel guilty allowing myself to put off things that I thought needed to be done for things that I needed done for myself. So, I ended up being an anxious wreck. I couldn’t appreciate the gift I had been given, and that we had gotten the furthest we ever had. It got even worse when pregnant. I was constantly waiting for something to go wrong, because it usually did. That stole all the joy from that pregnancy. So, this time I made a promise to myself to be different. I would take the time I needed to be in a good headspace. I stopped looking at it as being selfish. I started realizing that if I invested that time in myself, then I could be a better wife, dog mama, friend, daughter. So... The dishes may stay in the sink a little longer I may not have a food stocked fridge I may take a mental health day off work And. That’s. Ok! I am happy. I am excited. I am hopeful. I am grateful. #ivf #ivfwarrior #infertility #infertilityawareness #diminishedovarianreserve #lowamh #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #frozenembryotransfer

  • ❤️🥰I was so excited for this program and couldn’t wait to launch it to you come September however....I am ready and willing to launch now since I know those pregnant mamas & postpartum mamas might need this now! • I still want to walk this journey with you, even if my time line might be a little different than expected. • I have fallen in love with barre over this past year. 🙏🏼👯‍♀️ Not only for the physical aspects but for my mindset. It’s challenged me. It’s lifted me up. Breathwork. Affirmations. Positive self talk that help carry me throughout the day. • Which I truly believe everyone needs but especially when going through pregnancy and postpartum we need to be treating our bodies and minds with the upmost love and respect. • I am excited to launch the new barre pre/post natal program for you mama 🥰❤️ Oh also great for anyone looking to also get healthy and ready for a future pregnancy too! • Workouts for each trimester. Little to no equipment you choose ❤️. Helping with strength, mobility, flexibility, and posture. • If you want more details check out my stories to apply or message me privately to chat. Let’s go on this amazing journey together 👯‍♀️❤️

    ❤️🥰I was so excited for this program and couldn’t wait to launch it to you come September however....I am ready and willing to launch now since I know those pregnant mamas & postpartum mamas might need this now! • I still want to walk this journey with you, even if my time line might be a little different than expected. • I have fallen in love with barre over this past year. 🙏🏼👯‍♀️ Not only for the physical aspects but for my mindset. It’s challenged me. It’s lifted me up. Breathwork. Affirmations. Positive self talk that help carry me throughout the day. • Which I truly believe everyone needs but especially when going through pregnancy and postpartum we need to be treating our bodies and minds with the upmost love and respect. • I am excited to launch the new barre pre/post natal program for you mama 🥰❤️ Oh also great for anyone looking to also get healthy and ready for a future pregnancy too! • Workouts for each trimester. Little to no equipment you choose ❤️. Helping with strength, mobility, flexibility, and posture. • If you want more details check out my stories to apply or message me privately to chat. Let’s go on this amazing journey together 👯‍♀️❤️

  • Got in to see my GYN today to discuss next steps in ttc. It’s pretty clear that there’s something going on that’s causing me uncomfortable symptoms and making it difficult to get or stay pregnant. My most apparent symptoms have always been fatigue and heat intolerance which have been really affecting my quality of life. Last week, right after my super early period, I was hit with an intense wave of exhaustion. I would sleep 12 hours, be awake for 8 hours, and then be so tired that I would need to go back to bed for another 12-15 hours. So my GYN decided the best next step is labs and an ultrasound. The labs will test blood count, thyroid, hormones, etc. I have had my thyroid tested in the past and it’s the most frustrating thing because the first lab will come back abnormal and then the second lab will come back normal so my doctors in the past have just pretty much been like 🤷 Hopefully if that happens this time, they will look more into it because this has happened to me three times. The ultrasound is two weeks out and they’re just going to make sure that I don’t have PCOS. And also just see where my cycle is at at that time, just make sure everything is normal. Man I hope so badly that something will be revealed because I am so tired of the fatigue, sweating, brain fog, and not being able to successfully get pregnant. Please cross your fingers and send positive vibes 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻💜 #ttc #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsupport #ttctribe #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttcafterloss #ttcadvice #gyn #miscarriage #notpregnant #coping #miscarriage #thyroid #hormones #hormonehealth #fertility #support #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #cycle #period

    Got in to see my GYN today to discuss next steps in ttc. It’s pretty clear that there’s something going on that’s causing me uncomfortable symptoms and making it difficult to get or stay pregnant. My most apparent symptoms have always been fatigue and heat intolerance which have been really affecting my quality of life. Last week, right after my super early period, I was hit with an intense wave of exhaustion. I would sleep 12 hours, be awake for 8 hours, and then be so tired that I would need to go back to bed for another 12-15 hours. So my GYN decided the best next step is labs and an ultrasound. The labs will test blood count, thyroid, hormones, etc. I have had my thyroid tested in the past and it’s the most frustrating thing because the first lab will come back abnormal and then the second lab will come back normal so my doctors in the past have just pretty much been like 🤷 Hopefully if that happens this time, they will look more into it because this has happened to me three times. The ultrasound is two weeks out and they’re just going to make sure that I don’t have PCOS. And also just see where my cycle is at at that time, just make sure everything is normal. Man I hope so badly that something will be revealed because I am so tired of the fatigue, sweating, brain fog, and not being able to successfully get pregnant. Please cross your fingers and send positive vibes 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻💜#ttc #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsupport #ttctribe #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttcafterloss #ttcadvice #gyn #miscarriage #notpregnant #coping #miscarriage #thyroid #hormones #hormonehealth #fertility #support #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #cycle #period

  • I always say, the original piece, that made my business who I am today, the piece that made me grow to places I never believed possible, was the piece that made me care in ways I didn’t know possible. It made me connect with so many of you who I now call friends! It put a fire into me that never has been put out. The ultrasound. To remember your baby, for the short time you carried him/her, or the long 9 months. It is a time to remember forever. It’s been a while since I made designed ultrasound, and I am here for it! And if you are like me, and forget your babies birth information far to easy (mom brain am I right!?), the birth information board will be here to stay...what do you think, should put it these website for Sept Reopening again!? . . #stringart #ultrasound #birthday #birthweek #ultrasoundart #miscarriage #babyshowerideas #fiberart #40weekspregnant #mybabygirl #welcomehomebaby #miscarriageawareness #babyshowergifts #nurserydecor #nurseryideas

    I always say, the original piece, that made my business who I am today, the piece that made me grow to places I never believed possible, was the piece that made me care in ways I didn’t know possible. It made me connect with so many of you who I now call friends! It put a fire into me that never has been put out. The ultrasound. To remember your baby, for the short time you carried him/her, or the long 9 months. It is a time to remember forever. It’s been a while since I made designed ultrasound, and I am here for it! And if you are like me, and forget your babies birth information far to easy (mom brain am I right!?), the birth information board will be here to stay...what do you think, should put it these website for Sept Reopening again!? . .#stringart #ultrasound #birthday #birthweek #ultrasoundart #miscarriage #babyshowerideas #fiberart #40weekspregnant #mybabygirl #welcomehomebaby #miscarriageawareness #babyshowergifts #nurserydecor #nurseryideas

  • A woman’s body is incredible. One day we can’t see our swollen toes, belly stretched further than you thought possible, with what feels like no end in sight to meet that little human snuggled inside. Then in a flash we’re using every last bit of strength in our body & hearts to bring the baby we’ve carried for 9 months into this world. That first week postpartum, the start of the 4th trimester, is a roller coaster. Our bodies are changing dramatically yet again. We begin to heal from bringing baby earth-side, pain in places you never thought could hurt, chapped nipples from feeding baby every hour, wet bedsheets from full boobs and postpartum sweat, headaches from our hormones attempting to balance out, going through the dreaded, never-talked-about “baby blues”, all while just trying to adjust to life as a new mama again (or for the first time). Going through all of this with Holt was just ALOT. No one talked about half of this before birth... so this time I have made an extra conscious effort to appreciate my body, my heart & my soul this first week postpartum. I’ve been giving myself “me time” when needed & not feeling (as) guilty. I’ve been more open with my communication to Jakob & my girlfriends about my feelings because the “baby blues” are no joke. Always talk things out, don’t hold it in. I’ve allowed myself grace when it comes to “bouncing back”. I’m listening to what my body & mind needs right then and there. Overall I am trying so hard to embrace this 4th trimester and use it as another chance to grow myself as a mom, wife, friend and person. A woman’s body is incredible. And I’m going to love this body of mine that has worked hard, carried & fed both of our precious boys. 🤍 *Swipe to see both of them at 5 days old 😌*

    A woman’s body is incredible. One day we can’t see our swollen toes, belly stretched further than you thought possible, with what feels like no end in sight to meet that little human snuggled inside. Then in a flash we’re using every last bit of strength in our body & hearts to bring the baby we’ve carried for 9 months into this world. That first week postpartum, the start of the 4th trimester, is a roller coaster. Our bodies are changing dramatically yet again. We begin to heal from bringing baby earth-side, pain in places you never thought could hurt, chapped nipples from feeding baby every hour, wet bedsheets from full boobs and postpartum sweat, headaches from our hormones attempting to balance out, going through the dreaded, never-talked-about “baby blues”, all while just trying to adjust to life as a new mama again (or for the first time). Going through all of this with Holt was just ALOT. No one talked about half of this before birth... so this time I have made an extra conscious effort to appreciate my body, my heart & my soul this first week postpartum. I’ve been giving myself “me time” when needed & not feeling (as) guilty. I’ve been more open with my communication to Jakob & my girlfriends about my feelings because the “baby blues” are no joke. Always talk things out, don’t hold it in. I’ve allowed myself grace when it comes to “bouncing back”. I’m listening to what my body & mind needs right then and there. Overall I am trying so hard to embrace this 4th trimester and use it as another chance to grow myself as a mom, wife, friend and person. A woman’s body is incredible. And I’m going to love this body of mine that has worked hard, carried & fed both of our precious boys. 🤍 *Swipe to see both of them at 5 days old 😌*

  • It’s Giveaway Time!!! 🎉 . . . This week I am giving away a free signed copy of my children’s book, Mackenzie Goes to Heaven. . . . Mackenzie Goes to Heaven is a story about a mother elephant who is pregnant with her baby elephant. The bond is very strong, and everything is going fine until the baby is called home to Heaven. The mother elephant grieves the loss of her baby while the baby elephant grieves but also finds joy in her new home. Baby elephant also discovers that though she may no longer be with her mother physically, she can watch over her from above. This children’s book is a sweet and sensitive story inspired by my two angel babies. It is designed to provide comfort to a grieving mother and family who have experienced a pregnancy loss. . . . Here’s How to Enter! Like my page: @mrs.rhames Comment: What is your favorite children’s book and why? Bonus Entry: Share this post to your stories and tag me @mrs.rhames This giveaway starts NOW and will end Friday August 7th @ midnight. . . . This Giveaway is in no way sponsored, endorsed, administered by or associated with Instagram. Must be 18 or over to enter and living in the U.S. . . . #childrensbookauthor #childrensbooks #teacher #authorsofinstagram #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancylosssupport #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagesupport #infantloss #infantlossawareness #giveaway #giveawaycontest #bookgiveaway #family #grief #griefresource

    It’s Giveaway Time!!! 🎉 . . . This week I am giving away a free signed copy of my children’s book, Mackenzie Goes to Heaven. . . . Mackenzie Goes to Heaven is a story about a mother elephant who is pregnant with her baby elephant. The bond is very strong, and everything is going fine until the baby is called home to Heaven. The mother elephant grieves the loss of her baby while the baby elephant grieves but also finds joy in her new home. Baby elephant also discovers that though she may no longer be with her mother physically, she can watch over her from above. This children’s book is a sweet and sensitive story inspired by my two angel babies. It is designed to provide comfort to a grieving mother and family who have experienced a pregnancy loss. . . . Here’s How to Enter! Like my page: @mrs.rhames Comment: What is your favorite children’s book and why? Bonus Entry: Share this post to your stories and tag me @mrs.rhames This giveaway starts NOW and will end Friday August 7th @ midnight. . . . This Giveaway is in no way sponsored, endorsed, administered by or associated with Instagram. Must be 18 or over to enter and living in the U.S. . . .#childrensbookauthor #childrensbooks #teacher #authorsofinstagram #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancylosssupport #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagesupport #infantloss #infantlossawareness #giveaway #giveawaycontest #bookgiveaway #family #grief #griefresource

  • Every single one of us started out as a beautiful blastocyst. Have you ever wondered how embryos develop from the time of egg retrieval to when they are considered blastocysts? Stay up to date on all things fertility on my YouTube channel.⁣ 📺 YouTube.com/DrShahinGhadir

    Every single one of us started out as a beautiful blastocyst. Have you ever wondered how embryos develop from the time of egg retrieval to when they are considered blastocysts? Stay up to date on all things fertility on my YouTube channel.⁣ 📺 YouTube.com/DrShahinGhadir

  • There are many topics that are difficult to talk about in our community? Why is that? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Do we choose to focus on being grateful? Is it easier to make someone laugh to keep from crying? Are we dealing with enough trauma in the world to now switch focus on yet another? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Are we trained to lay down our burdens at the altar, in church, to God and leave them there? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Listen, there isnt one true answer here. There are many layers. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Because of that, this is why we are choosing to burn down the walls of silence and support our #SororityofBereavedMothers by putting together this anthology. We are seeking voices from the Black Community to tell their stories of pregnancy loss and infertility. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Learn more at mamaskitchenpress.com

    There are many topics that are difficult to talk about in our community? Why is that? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Do we choose to focus on being grateful? Is it easier to make someone laugh to keep from crying? Are we dealing with enough trauma in the world to now switch focus on yet another? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Are we trained to lay down our burdens at the altar, in church, to God and leave them there? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Listen, there isn't one true answer here. There are many layers. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Because of that, this is why we are choosing to burn down the walls of silence and support our #sororityofbereavedmothers by putting together this anthology. We are seeking voices from the Black Community to tell their stories of pregnancy loss and infertility. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Learn more at mamaskitchenpress.com

  • Made this ugly little paper chain as a countdown to my pregnancy test. Each one has a quote about positivity and a self care activity to do that day. Anyone have any self-care ideas? #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #infertilitywarrior #1in8 #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #1in4

    Made this ugly little paper chain as a countdown to my pregnancy test. Each one has a quote about positivity and a self care activity to do that day. Anyone have any self-care ideas? #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #infertilitywarrior #1in8 #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #1in4

  • 🗝 Tomamos prestado este texto e imagen de la cuenta de @mujeres.sanadoras porque nos llegó al alma. Gracias por permitirnos compartir. _________________________________________ El hijo, el que todavía no llegó a tu vientre, y el que se está gestando, el nacido y el no nacido, es una llave Una llave a tu lado más primitivo, un llamado a la intuición, a que florezcan los sentidos Una llave a la conciencia de unidad, de sostén, amor incondicional Una llave para tu transformación La mayor entrega, a la vida, a la fuente, la verdad Él trae consigo los códigos mas elevados de tu propia vibración Juntos hace eones trazaron un plan: evolucionar juntos Convertirnos en portal, él tiene la llave A tu nueva Yo, dejála venir Él sabe, siente, trae lo nuevo, el pacto de paz Dejáte atraer por su nombre, escuchá su mensaje Si aún no vino a las formas, certeza de que vendrá, y si esta por llegar: Solo sé manantial, él conoce el camino, como el agua, que al sol se tranforma en Luz. Feliz Luna llena, en Acuario con amor, 🌷Flor "El hilo de Ariadna que te guía a través del laberinto de la transformación es tu bebé, escuchalo en tu profundidad y te dirá dónde estás y adónde irás" V. Schmid #RainbowMoms🌈 #1de4 #1in4 #MiscarriageAwareness #LifeAfterMiscarriage #PregnancyLoss #AlwaysAMom #PerdidaDeBebe

    🗝 Tomamos prestado este texto e imagen de la cuenta de @mujeres.sanadoras porque nos llegó al alma. Gracias por permitirnos compartir. _________________________________________ El hijo, el que todavía no llegó a tu vientre, y el que se está gestando, el nacido y el no nacido, es una llave Una llave a tu lado más primitivo, un llamado a la intuición, a que florezcan los sentidos Una llave a la conciencia de unidad, de sostén, amor incondicional Una llave para tu transformación La mayor entrega, a la vida, a la fuente, la verdad Él trae consigo los códigos mas elevados de tu propia vibración Juntos hace eones trazaron un plan: evolucionar juntos Convertirnos en portal, él tiene la llave A tu nueva Yo, dejála venir Él sabe, siente, trae lo nuevo, el pacto de paz Dejáte atraer por su nombre, escuchá su mensaje Si aún no vino a las formas, certeza de que vendrá, y si esta por llegar: Solo sé manantial, él conoce el camino, como el agua, que al sol se tranforma en Luz. Feliz Luna llena, en Acuario con amor, 🌷Flor "El hilo de Ariadna que te guía a través del laberinto de la transformación es tu bebé, escuchalo en tu profundidad y te dirá dónde estás y adónde irás" V. Schmid#rainbowmoms 🌈 #1de4 #1in4 #miscarriageawareness #lifeaftermiscarriage #pregnancyloss #alwaysamom #perdidadebebe

  • Introducing our 70th 2020 strutter 🙌🙌🙌 Doug is an all round amazing person, who does so much to help others, so it’s no surprise that he got behind our cause. He’s not on social media, but got in touch with me today to share his photo and confirm he did his strut on Saturday - 12 miles, no less - all while delivering leaflets to support members of our local community ❤️❤️❤️ How amazing is that? Helping our cause whilst helping the people around us. Whilst I’m on the subject of helping, you could help tip us over our target for this year’s #strutyoursongs - we are SO close to hitting our target (£329.84, to be precise!!!). If you can help out, please visit the link in my bio to donate - and follow in Doug’s footsteps 👏👏👏 #strutyoursongs2020 #miscarriagematters #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #miscarriagesupport #breakingthesilence #musicheals #charity #dosomethinggood #helpingothers

    Introducing our 70th 2020 strutter 🙌🙌🙌 Doug is an all round amazing person, who does so much to help others, so it’s no surprise that he got behind our cause. He’s not on social media, but got in touch with me today to share his photo and confirm he did his strut on Saturday - 12 miles, no less - all while delivering leaflets to support members of our local community ❤️❤️❤️ How amazing is that? Helping our cause whilst helping the people around us. Whilst I’m on the subject of helping, you could help tip us over our target for this year’s #strutyoursongs - we are SO close to hitting our target (£329.84, to be precise!!!). If you can help out, please visit the link in my bio to donate - and follow in Doug’s footsteps 👏👏👏#strutyoursongs2020 #miscarriagematters #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #miscarriagesupport #breakingthesilence #musicheals #charity #dosomethinggood #helpingothers

  • I love this saying but sometimes we don’t have it in us to bloom. Let’s face it, sometimes you’re just a little seedling 🌱 covered in a whole heap of 💩⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ I spent two years being generously fertalised by life and there was very little blooming involved. ⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ Mostly, there was just a lot of shrinking. And hiding. And feeling. ⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ But eventually, when my circumstances improved, I pushed through all the crap and reached for the sun again 🔅Read that last part again🔅⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ My circumstances improved first. ⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ I had help. Gardeners, if you will, tending to me and nurturing me. People and professionals who showed me kindness and grace when I wasn’t my best. Eventually I began tending to myself again too 🌱⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ So if you can’t bloom where you’re planted yet, that’s okay. Look for the gardeners in your life. Tend yourself as best you can. ⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ One day soon, dear heart, you’ll push through the fertiliser and reach for the sun 🌻⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ From little things, big things grow 🌳⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ ~~~⁣⁣⁣⠀ HASHTAGS ⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ #qldwriters #freelancewriters #freelancewriter #featurewriter #parentingwriter #wellbeingwriter #freelancejournalist #mindfulness #writermama #writersfindingwriters #wip #writersofinstagram #author #authorsofinstagram #selfcare #selfkindness #askingforhelpisnotaweakness #loveyourself #inspirationalquotes #family #love #miscarriagemomma #rainbowbaby #mumof1 #babyboy #iugr #iugrthriving #miscarriageawareness #palcommunity #blooming

    I love this saying but sometimes we don’t have it in us to bloom. Let’s face it, sometimes you’re just a little seedling 🌱 covered in a whole heap of 💩⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ I spent two years being generously fertalised by life and there was very little blooming involved. ⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ Mostly, there was just a lot of shrinking. And hiding. And feeling. ⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ But eventually, when my circumstances improved, I pushed through all the crap and reached for the sun again 🔅Read that last part again🔅⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ My circumstances improved first. ⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ I had help. Gardeners, if you will, tending to me and nurturing me. People and professionals who showed me kindness and grace when I wasn’t my best. Eventually I began tending to myself again too 🌱⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ So if you can’t bloom where you’re planted yet, that’s okay. Look for the gardeners in your life. Tend yourself as best you can. ⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ One day soon, dear heart, you’ll push through the fertiliser and reach for the sun 🌻⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ From little things, big things grow 🌳⁣⁣⁣⠀ ⁣⁣⁣⠀ ~~~⁣⁣⁣⠀ HASHTAGS ⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀ .⁣⁣⁣⠀#qldwriters #freelancewriters #freelancewriter #featurewriter #parentingwriter #wellbeingwriter #freelancejournalist #mindfulness #writermama #writersfindingwriters #wip #writersofinstagram #author #authorsofinstagram #selfcare #selfkindness #askingforhelpisnotaweakness #loveyourself #inspirationalquotes #family #love #miscarriagemomma #rainbowbaby #mumof1 #babyboy #iugr #iugrthriving #miscarriageawareness #palcommunity #blooming

  • This isn’t the announcement we planned for. But here we are. This little miracle was hoped for, prayed for, and loved. But went back to live with Heavenly Father shortly after we found out we were expecting. As soon as we saw those pink lines we were cautiously excited. My numbers werent near what they should’ve been for 4 weeks pregnant. But then 2 days later we saw a glimmer of hope and my numbers doubled like they should. We held on to that glimmer of hope. We talked about what April would look like and how excited the kids would be. Then just like that my symptoms went away and I knew our little one went to heaven. We don’t understand gods plans. We don’t know why he took our baby so soon. But we do know his plans are perfect tho they don’t seem it right now. To those who have or are going through miscarriage your feelings are valid. It’s okay to cry all day long, have doubts about continuing your journey to another baby, and it’s okay to mourn all the things you were looking forward to. My inbox is opened to talk if you need someone who understands the hurt and pain that comes from having an angel baby. To those who have messaged me the last week and a half asking what our outcome was I am thankful for all the sincere messages. ~I may have held you in my womb for a brief moment but you will forever be in my heart ❤️ ~ #miscarriage #chemicalpregnancy #angelbaby👼 #myhearthurts #godsplansareperfect #miraclebaby #miscarriageawareness #infertility #pcos #infertilityawareness #angelinheaven #love #miscarriagematters #miscarriagemomma

    This isn’t the announcement we planned for. But here we are. This little miracle was hoped for, prayed for, and loved. But went back to live with Heavenly Father shortly after we found out we were expecting. As soon as we saw those pink lines we were cautiously excited. My numbers werent near what they should’ve been for 4 weeks pregnant. But then 2 days later we saw a glimmer of hope and my numbers doubled like they should. We held on to that glimmer of hope. We talked about what April would look like and how excited the kids would be. Then just like that my symptoms went away and I knew our little one went to heaven. We don’t understand gods plans. We don’t know why he took our baby so soon. But we do know his plans are perfect tho they don’t seem it right now. To those who have or are going through miscarriage your feelings are valid. It’s okay to cry all day long, have doubts about continuing your journey to another baby, and it’s okay to mourn all the things you were looking forward to. My inbox is opened to talk if you need someone who understands the hurt and pain that comes from having an angel baby. To those who have messaged me the last week and a half asking what our outcome was I am thankful for all the sincere messages. ~I may have held you in my womb for a brief moment but you will forever be in my heart ❤️ ~#miscarriage #chemicalpregnancy #angelbaby 👼 #myhearthurts #godsplansareperfect #miraclebaby #miscarriageawareness #infertility #pcos #infertilityawareness #angelinheaven #love #miscarriagematters #miscarriagemomma

  • HAPPY TRANSFER DAY BABY HENDRIX 🎉 I remember waking on the 5th of August last year, I was excited and terrified all at the same time. Our last chance at pregnancy, my heart couldn’t take anymore, my body felt exhausted and our finances had depleted! We had so much faith in @fertility_queen_dr_burmeister I felt if anyone was going to achieve a successful pregnancy for us without a miscarriage it would be her so we jumped in the car the 3 of us full of hope and faith that this was it! That embryo we transferred is now our darling rainbow baby, he fills our hearts with such love and joy a true miracle mixed with a bit of science and alot of Dr Lynn Burmeister! Happy transfer day my angel we will forever be so so grateful for that faithful day, you are our baby dream come true! .. #rivertheodore #hendrixjohn #ivfjourney #transferday #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #infertility #ivfbaby #ivf #ivfsuccess #ivfsupport #hyperemesisgravidarum

    HAPPY TRANSFER DAY BABY HENDRIX 🎉 I remember waking on the 5th of August last year, I was excited and terrified all at the same time. Our last chance at pregnancy, my heart couldn’t take anymore, my body felt exhausted and our finances had depleted! We had so much faith in @fertility_queen_dr_burmeister I felt if anyone was going to achieve a successful pregnancy for us without a miscarriage it would be her so we jumped in the car the 3 of us full of hope and faith that this was it! That embryo we transferred is now our darling rainbow baby, he fills our hearts with such love and joy a true miracle mixed with a bit of science and alot of Dr Lynn Burmeister! Happy transfer day my angel we will forever be so so grateful for that faithful day, you are our baby dream come true! ..#rivertheodore #hendrixjohn #ivfjourney #transferday #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #infertility #ivfbaby #ivf #ivfsuccess #ivfsupport #hyperemesisgravidarum

  • These socks were a really simple gift but they’ve helped me a lot. It’s funny how the little things can change so much. My mom got me these because, well, she doesn’t understand my pain but she wants to help so she got me something she knows I like. That would be socks. There’s some that say “no bad days” because I’m really fighting off some depression right now and the goal is to have no bad days. Then the rainbow pair because everyone in our family is looking forward to a rainbow baby. And finally, the lemon ones that say “Squeeze the day” just because they’re fun. This journey of healing and eventually trying again is going to be so hard but it’s a journey I have to take. The pain would be so much worse if we just gave up. For now, I’m focusing on my mental health, which is really at an all time low. I need to take care of myself in order to take care of my daughter and in order to try again. #ttc #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsupport #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttcafterloss #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagesurvivor #waiting #2021 #baby

    These socks were a really simple gift but they’ve helped me a lot. It’s funny how the little things can change so much. My mom got me these because, well, she doesn’t understand my pain but she wants to help so she got me something she knows I like. That would be socks. There’s some that say “no bad days” because I’m really fighting off some depression right now and the goal is to have no bad days. Then the rainbow pair because everyone in our family is looking forward to a rainbow baby. And finally, the lemon ones that say “Squeeze the day” just because they’re fun. This journey of healing and eventually trying again is going to be so hard but it’s a journey I have to take. The pain would be so much worse if we just gave up. For now, I’m focusing on my mental health, which is really at an all time low. I need to take care of myself in order to take care of my daughter and in order to try again.#ttc #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsupport #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttcafterloss #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #miscarriagesurvivor #waiting #2021 #baby

  • HAPPY TRANSFER DAY BABY HENDRIX 🎉 I remember waking on the 5th of August last year, I was excited and terrified all at the same time. Our last chance at pregnancy, my heart couldn’t take anymore, my body felt exhausted and our finances had depleted! We had so much faith in @fertility_queen_dr_burmeister I felt if anyone was going to achieve a successful pregnancy for us without a miscarriage it would be her so we jumped in the car the 3 of us full of hope and faith that this was it! That embryo we transferred is now our darling rainbow baby, he fills our hearts with such love and joy a true miracle mixed with a bit of science and alot of Dr Lynn Burmeister! Happy transfer day my angel we will forever be so so grateful for that faithful day, you are our baby dream come true! .. #rivertheodore #hendrixjohn #ivfjourney #transferday #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #infertility #ivfbaby #ivf #ivfsuccess #ivfsupport #hyperemesisgravidarum

    HAPPY TRANSFER DAY BABY HENDRIX 🎉 I remember waking on the 5th of August last year, I was excited and terrified all at the same time. Our last chance at pregnancy, my heart couldn’t take anymore, my body felt exhausted and our finances had depleted! We had so much faith in @fertility_queen_dr_burmeister I felt if anyone was going to achieve a successful pregnancy for us without a miscarriage it would be her so we jumped in the car the 3 of us full of hope and faith that this was it! That embryo we transferred is now our darling rainbow baby, he fills our hearts with such love and joy a true miracle mixed with a bit of science and alot of Dr Lynn Burmeister! Happy transfer day my angel we will forever be so so grateful for that faithful day, you are our baby dream come true! ..#rivertheodore #hendrixjohn #ivfjourney #transferday #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #infertility #ivfbaby #ivf #ivfsuccess #ivfsupport #hyperemesisgravidarum

  • This is a photo of the first positive pregnancy tests I had ever gotten, in August 2018. They resulted in a lot of heartache, but no baby. • It’s been 2 years but it clouds my mind often. I wonder who they would have been. And even though I went on to later have a beautiful, healthy baby, my early #miscarriage has stuck with me. • The top test in the photo was taken first. I was used to negative tests and figured this cycle was probably another wash but my period was due and it hadn’t reared it’s ugly head yet so I pulled out the last test in the house. Once it developed, I froze and stared at it for a long time. Looking back at me was a faint second line. I’d had other faint positives in previous cycles (chemical pregnancies? Bad tests? I don’t know) so I was skeptical. • I rushed out to the store and bought more tests and immediately came home and took another (the bottom test in this photo). I watched it slowly develop and when it was obvious, I was pregnant, I cried big tears. • I made the decision, which I came to later deeply regret, not to tell a soul until my doctor could confirm it. I made an appointment for later in the week and kept it to myself. The week was fairly uneventful. I put together an announcement to later give to my husband and I took several more tests throughout the week. The tests got darker and although they didn’t seem to be progressing, I wasn’t worried. The morning of my doctors appointment, I noticed I was bleeding a little but I convinced myself it was normal. • I can only imagine my doctor had a good laugh at me, as I poured out a purse full of positive pregnancy tests for her to look at. She ordered a blood test to confirm and I got the results the following day. Based on my dates, my hcg was too low to be viable. • My poor husband came home from work that day to a completely broken wife. He hadn’t even known I was pregnant but had to try to pick up all the pieces. • (Continued in the comments)

    This is a photo of the first positive pregnancy tests I had ever gotten, in August 2018. They resulted in a lot of heartache, but no baby. • It’s been 2 years but it clouds my mind often. I wonder who they would have been. And even though I went on to later have a beautiful, healthy baby, my early #miscarriage has stuck with me. • The top test in the photo was taken first. I was used to negative tests and figured this cycle was probably another wash but my period was due and it hadn’t reared it’s ugly head yet so I pulled out the last test in the house. Once it developed, I froze and stared at it for a long time. Looking back at me was a faint second line. I’d had other faint positives in previous cycles (chemical pregnancies? Bad tests? I don’t know) so I was skeptical. • I rushed out to the store and bought more tests and immediately came home and took another (the bottom test in this photo). I watched it slowly develop and when it was obvious, I was pregnant, I cried big tears. • I made the decision, which I came to later deeply regret, not to tell a soul until my doctor could confirm it. I made an appointment for later in the week and kept it to myself. The week was fairly uneventful. I put together an announcement to later give to my husband and I took several more tests throughout the week. The tests got darker and although they didn’t seem to be progressing, I wasn’t worried. The morning of my doctors appointment, I noticed I was bleeding a little but I convinced myself it was normal. • I can only imagine my doctor had a good laugh at me, as I poured out a purse full of positive pregnancy tests for her to look at. She ordered a blood test to confirm and I got the results the following day. Based on my dates, my hcg was too low to be viable. • My poor husband came home from work that day to a completely broken wife. He hadn’t even known I was pregnant but had to try to pick up all the pieces. • (Continued in the comments)

  • First day in two weeks where I haven’t had morning sickness. I’m not sure how long it will last but I’m loving it ❤️.

    First day in two weeks where I haven’t had morning sickness. I’m not sure how long it will last but I’m loving it ❤️.

  • HAPPY TRANSFER DAY BABY HENDRIX 🎉 I remember waking on the 5th of August last year, I was excited and terrified all at the same time. Our last chance at pregnancy, my heart couldn’t take anymore, my body felt exhausted and our finances had depleted! We had so much faith in @fertility_queen_dr_burmeister I felt if anyone was going to achieve a successful pregnancy for us without a miscarriage it would be her so we jumped in the car the 3 of us full of hope and faith that this was it! That embryo we transferred is now our darling rainbow baby, he fills our hearts with such love and joy a true miracle mixed with a bit of science and alot of Dr Lynn Burmeister! Happy transfer day my angel we will forever be so so grateful for that faithful day, you are our baby dream come true! .. #rivertheodore #hendrixjohn #ivfjourney #transferday #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #infertility #ivfbaby #ivf #ivfsuccess #ivfsupport #hyperemesisgravidarum

    HAPPY TRANSFER DAY BABY HENDRIX 🎉 I remember waking on the 5th of August last year, I was excited and terrified all at the same time. Our last chance at pregnancy, my heart couldn’t take anymore, my body felt exhausted and our finances had depleted! We had so much faith in @fertility_queen_dr_burmeister I felt if anyone was going to achieve a successful pregnancy for us without a miscarriage it would be her so we jumped in the car the 3 of us full of hope and faith that this was it! That embryo we transferred is now our darling rainbow baby, he fills our hearts with such love and joy a true miracle mixed with a bit of science and alot of Dr Lynn Burmeister! Happy transfer day my angel we will forever be so so grateful for that faithful day, you are our baby dream come true! ..#rivertheodore #hendrixjohn #ivfjourney #transferday #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #infertility #ivfbaby #ivf #ivfsuccess #ivfsupport #hyperemesisgravidarum

  • Since yesterday… Thank you so much for your ‘Yes’s!’ and ‘This’s!’ following my post yesterday. So many of you said you hate the word ‘miscarriage’ and that from now on youre going to use pregnancy loss! I have btw changed the front cover of the book, I’m just waiting to get it back from the designer, so I’ll post it when I have. It’s been wonderful to get your feedback, this community is so fantastic. There have been many other suggestions, such as not including the word ‘natural’ because it may be confusing when someone has had a pregnancy loss after fertility treatment (assisted), someone else doesnt like the word ‘natural’ because nothing is natural about pregnancy loss. Yet again, another person said they always refer to a ‘miscarriage’ as an abnormal pregnancy because loss implies the woman could have done something to find her pregnancy and not lose it. @khuieharrison wrote an article in November, 2019, called ‘Call it pregnancy loss’ and she pointed out that in her book ‘Becoming’, @michelleobama said this about pregnancy loss “When you have one, you will likely mistake it for a personal failure, which it is not.” Everyone’s experience is different & this is one reason why finding one word is very difficult. But I personally think it’s deeper than just changing the word from ‘miscarriage’ to something else. As many pointed out, a lot of words associated with women’s bodies & health are out of date and hint at failure – such as ‘incompetent cervix’, ‘missed miscarriage’ – I’m sure there are many more that you can think of, so please drop them into a comment. Something else that needs addressing big time is insensitive comments and lack of empathy from other women. This makes me think of the animal kingdom, lions for example, where the lionesses are all trying to compete with the other lionesses so the lion will mate with her because she’s obviously the best – the woman who hasn’t had a loss thinks she’s better than the woman who has and wants her to know that!! Am I right? I hope not! A number of people are interested in doing something about this, maybe a campaign or a movement. My thinking cap is on as we haven’t heard the last of this!

    Since yesterday… Thank you so much for your ‘Yes’s!’ and ‘This’s!’ following my post yesterday. So many of you said you hate the word ‘miscarriage’ and that from now on you're going to use pregnancy loss! I have btw changed the front cover of the book, I’m just waiting to get it back from the designer, so I’ll post it when I have. It’s been wonderful to get your feedback, this community is so fantastic. There have been many other suggestions, such as not including the word ‘natural’ because it may be confusing when someone has had a pregnancy loss after fertility treatment (assisted), someone else doesn't like the word ‘natural’ because nothing is natural about pregnancy loss. Yet again, another person said they always refer to a ‘miscarriage’ as an abnormal pregnancy because loss implies the woman could have done something to find her pregnancy and not lose it. @khuieharrison wrote an article in November, 2019, called ‘Call it pregnancy loss’ and she pointed out that in her book ‘Becoming’, @michelleobama said this about pregnancy loss “When you have one, you will likely mistake it for a personal failure, which it is not.” Everyone’s experience is different & this is one reason why finding one word is very difficult. But I personally think it’s deeper than just changing the word from ‘miscarriage’ to something else. As many pointed out, a lot of words associated with women’s bodies & health are out of date and hint at failure – such as ‘incompetent cervix’, ‘missed miscarriage’ – I’m sure there are many more that you can think of, so please drop them into a comment. Something else that needs addressing big time is insensitive comments and lack of empathy from other women. This makes me think of the animal kingdom, lions for example, where the lionesses are all trying to compete with the other lionesses so the lion will mate with her because she’s obviously the best – the woman who hasn’t had a loss thinks she’s better than the woman who has and wants her to know that!! Am I right? I hope not! A number of people are interested in doing something about this, maybe a campaign or a movement. My thinking cap is on as we haven’t heard the last of this!

  • The past 3 weeks I’ve had a hard time showing up. The first week I found out I was pregnant I was lethargic & nauseous. Then the past 2 weeks my body’s been going through the trauma of losing the baby. Every single day I feel emotionally and physically exhausted from the moment I wake@up to the moment I go to sleep. I have short bursts of happy, excited energy but they don’t last long. I’m suppose to be a light on here, practice what I preach about motivation being BS, show up even on the hard days... but tbh... I never understood hard until 2 weeks ago when I lost our baby. The emotional, physical, mental pain has been deep and painful. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced all three at once or for days on end. I’m use to masking difficulties. But this one, I’ve learned, I can’t mask no matter how hard I try. I know the only way I’ll be able to move forward is to go through it. But I feel like lately I’ve been neglecting the habits I created the past year that have helped me so much mentally and emotionally. Isn’t it interesting when things get hard, we naturally gravitate towards all the negative and quickly give up on what we know will help us. The past year I’ve created habits that have helped me mentally and physically. Properly fueling my body, getting in at least 20mins of physical movement every single day, personal development daily to continue to grow my mind, morning quiet time to connect to God and write out my daily gratitudes. The past few weeks I’ve let go of these daily habits. I’ve gravitated towards the negative. And it’s done nothing but drain me. So I’m here and ready to recommit. Recommit to me, for me. I’ll allow myself grace along the way but I won’t allow the hard to stop me from continuing to become my best and healthiest self... and neither should you. Feel the emotions, go through the hard, but also be selfish, don’t ever stop working on yourself for yourself. You can always commit with me, links in bio. You’re not alone, we can face the hard together👯‍♀️ #miscarriage#miscarriageawareness#beselfish#momhealth#healthymentalhabits#physicalmentalspiritualfitness#miscarriagesupport

    The past 3 weeks I’ve had a hard time showing up. The first week I found out I was pregnant I was lethargic & nauseous. Then the past 2 weeks my body’s been going through the trauma of losing the baby. Every single day I feel emotionally and physically exhausted from the moment I wake@up to the moment I go to sleep. I have short bursts of happy, excited energy but they don’t last long. I’m suppose to be a light on here, practice what I preach about motivation being BS, show up even on the hard days... but tbh... I never understood hard until 2 weeks ago when I lost our baby. The emotional, physical, mental pain has been deep and painful. I don’t think I’ve ever experienced all three at once or for days on end. I’m use to masking difficulties. But this one, I’ve learned, I can’t mask no matter how hard I try. I know the only way I’ll be able to move forward is to go through it. But I feel like lately I’ve been neglecting the habits I created the past year that have helped me so much mentally and emotionally. Isn’t it interesting when things get hard, we naturally gravitate towards all the negative and quickly give up on what we know will help us. The past year I’ve created habits that have helped me mentally and physically. Properly fueling my body, getting in at least 20mins of physical movement every single day, personal development daily to continue to grow my mind, morning quiet time to connect to God and write out my daily gratitudes. The past few weeks I’ve let go of these daily habits. I’ve gravitated towards the negative. And it’s done nothing but drain me. So I’m here and ready to recommit. Recommit to me, for me. I’ll allow myself grace along the way but I won’t allow the hard to stop me from continuing to become my best and healthiest self... and neither should you. Feel the emotions, go through the hard, but also be selfish, don’t ever stop working on yourself for yourself. You can always commit with me, links in bio. You’re not alone, we can face the hard together👯‍♀️#miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #beselfish #momhealth #healthymentalhabits #physicalmentalspiritualfitness #miscarriagesupport

  • What I wish people understood about pregnancy loss 👇🏼 . It’s not a single event that happens in a day that you then move on from . It’s: Ultrasounds Blood draws Bleeding and pads Waiting in offices surrounded by other pregnant people Feeling let down by your body Fear in subsequent pregnancies . This is a process, not a one day event. The physical part alone can take weeks to recover from. The mental part – it’s a complete toss up . If you’re experiencing loss, know that you aren’t alone. My DM’s are always open if you need to chat . If you’re looking for resources for yourself or to help support someone else, visit the link in my bio for a free guide to navigating pregnancy loss. Working hard to get you the resources you’ve been needing . . #pregnancyloss #ppacoach @pregnant.postpartum.athlete #miscarriagesupport #twinloss #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesucks #secondaryinfertility

    What I wish people understood about pregnancy loss 👇🏼 . It’s not a single event that happens in a day that you then move on from . It’s: Ultrasounds Blood draws Bleeding and pads Waiting in offices surrounded by other pregnant people Feeling let down by your body Fear in subsequent pregnancies . This is a process, not a one day event. The physical part alone can take weeks to recover from. The mental part – it’s a complete toss up . If you’re experiencing loss, know that you aren’t alone. My DM’s are always open if you need to chat . If you’re looking for resources for yourself or to help support someone else, visit the link in my bio for a free guide to navigating pregnancy loss. Working hard to get you the resources you’ve been needing . .#pregnancyloss #ppacoach @pregnant.postpartum.athlete #miscarriagesupport #twinloss #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesucks #secondaryinfertility

  • I can still vividly remember the days I spent crying because my plans of motherhood just didn’t pan out the way I expected. I remember the heartache, the feeling of not being able to breathe... I was 30+ and still not a mom. This isn’t how I thought it would go. I would constantly say “what is wrong with me!?” I became angry, discouraged, envious, and depressed. I felt broken. I know there are so many women who know this struggle... it’s a freakin hard road sometimes full of upsets and heartbreak... but I would do it all over again if I knew this would be my result. Always thinking of those who struggle.💕#ihadamiscarriage . . #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #worththewait #rainbowbaby #babyafterloss #infertility #motherhood #ig_motherhood #momsofig #momsofinstagram #momsofinsta #realmotherhood #myhonestmotherhood #sharetheeverymom #motherly #motherhoodunplugged #motherhoodintheraw #chicagomom #chicagomoms #midwestmama #momof2 #2under3 #mommyblogger #chicagomomblogger #chicagomommyblogger #blogger

    I can still vividly remember the days I spent crying because my plans of motherhood just didn’t pan out the way I expected. I remember the heartache, the feeling of not being able to breathe... I was 30+ and still not a mom. This isn’t how I thought it would go. I would constantly say “what is wrong with me!?” I became angry, discouraged, envious, and depressed. I felt broken. I know there are so many women who know this struggle... it’s a freakin hard road sometimes full of upsets and heartbreak... but I would do it all over again if I knew this would be my result. Always thinking of those who struggle.💕#ihadamiscarriage . .#miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #worththewait #rainbowbaby #babyafterloss #infertility #motherhood #ig_motherhood #momsofig #momsofinstagram #momsofinsta #realmotherhood #myhonestmotherhood #sharetheeverymom #motherly #motherhoodunplugged #motherhoodintheraw #chicagomom #chicagomoms #midwestmama #momof2 #2under3 #mommyblogger #chicagomomblogger #chicagomommyblogger #blogger

  • This summer is nothing like I had pictured it. Many things are different and some are the same. But the one thing I think of every day, during every activity and every moment of quiet is that it should be different. I should have a growing bump, my sweet Ezra kicking me, reminding me that hes growing inside. That in just a few shorts months hed be coming into this world and Id get to hold him. Its different. But Im trusting in Gods plan and although my Summer 2020 looks very different from what I had imagined, Im not any less grateful for it. Its been a summer of healing, of growth. A summer of immense change. Its not over, there is still so much left. And as we get closer to his due date, there is still so much healing for me, personally. But Im finally starting to feel like Im just about out of that valley. That the thought of Ezra doesnt break my heart completely. There is peace on the other side. The weeks and months after, its hard to see past the pain. But if youre there, in that space mama, in that pain, know there is joy again. There is hope, peace, and laughter. That gut-wrenching feeling goes away. The pain becomes a dull ache, never gone completely, but so much less painful. The thought of that little precious angel too perfect for this world will bring a smile to your face instead of tears that have been flowing since the beginning. And you are never alone. #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #pregnancylossawareness

    This summer is nothing like I had pictured it. Many things are different and some are the same. But the one thing I think of every day, during every activity and every moment of quiet is that it should be different. I should have a growing bump, my sweet Ezra kicking me, reminding me that he's growing inside. That in just a few shorts months he'd be coming into this world and I'd get to hold him. It's different. But I'm trusting in God's plan and although my Summer 2020 looks very different from what I had imagined, I'm not any less grateful for it. It's been a summer of healing, of growth. A summer of immense change. It's not over, there is still so much left. And as we get closer to his due date, there is still so much healing for me, personally. But I'm finally starting to feel like I'm just about out of that valley. That the thought of Ezra doesn't break my heart completely. There is peace on the other side. The weeks and months after, it's hard to see past the pain. But if you're there, in that space mama, in that pain, know there is joy again. There is hope, peace, and laughter. That gut-wrenching feeling goes away. The pain becomes a dull ache, never gone completely, but so much less painful. The thought of that little precious angel too perfect for this world will bring a smile to your face instead of tears that have been flowing since the beginning. And you are never alone.#miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesurvivor #pregnancylossawareness

  • HCG levels are in - at a low low number of 3.5 which means no more blood draws! 🥳 For now, at least. I’m considered “negative” or “normal” aka not pregnant. Also, my hormone levels indicate I’m coming up on mid cycle, which means...time to start ovulation testing!!! Yes, I tested right after I got off the phone with the nurse (not FMU). Still a little early (low fertility), I’ll test again first thing in the AM and every day moving forward monitoring for “peak fertility”. Then I can schedule with the reproductive immunologist and have them take all my blood to do a million tests 😃💉💉💉 . . . . . #IVF #ivfjourney #ivffettransfer #1in4 #ttcaftermiscarriage #ivfcommunity #ivfwarrior #babydust #ttc #ttcjourney #ttccommunity #ivfstrong #ivfstory #prayingforarainbow #ivfsisters #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #MTHFRgenemutation #mthfrgenemutationandpregnancy

    HCG levels are in - at a low low number of 3.5 which means no more blood draws! 🥳 For now, at least. I’m considered “negative” or “normal” aka not pregnant. Also, my hormone levels indicate I’m coming up on mid cycle, which means...time to start ovulation testing!!! Yes, I tested right after I got off the phone with the nurse (not FMU). Still a little early (low fertility), I’ll test again first thing in the AM and every day moving forward monitoring for “peak fertility”. Then I can schedule with the reproductive immunologist and have them take all my blood to do a million tests 😃💉💉💉 . . . . .#ivf #ivfjourney #ivffettransfer #1in4 #ttcaftermiscarriage #ivfcommunity #ivfwarrior #babydust #ttc #ttcjourney #ttccommunity #ivfstrong #ivfstory #prayingforarainbow #ivfsisters #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #mthfrgenemutation #mthfrgenemutationandpregnancy

  • How amazing is this guys!!!! ❤️❤️ New releases tomorrow too!

    How amazing is this guys!!!! ❤️❤️ New releases tomorrow too!

  • Let me tell you, 2020 has been shit. I’ve really been going through it. From being a nurse during COVID, to miscarrying my first pregnancy, to losing Toast. It’s been so hard. I will say, I’m feeling much better and all of these things have made me stronger. Just keep in mind you never know what someone is going through. There’s so much stigma around miscarriage and mental health. It’s okay to not be okay. Here’s to hoping the rest of 2020 sucks less. 🥂🦋 .. . .. . .. . .. . #womenshealth #rn #bsn #covid #health #miscarriageawareness #2020 #mentalhealthmatters

    Let me tell you, 2020 has been shit. I’ve really been going through it. From being a nurse during COVID, to miscarrying my first pregnancy, to losing Toast. It’s been so hard. I will say, I’m feeling much better and all of these things have made me stronger. Just keep in mind you never know what someone is going through. There’s so much stigma around miscarriage and mental health. It’s okay to not be okay. Here’s to hoping the rest of 2020 sucks less. 🥂🦋 .. . .. . .. . .. .#womenshealth #rn #bsn #covid #health #miscarriageawareness #2020 #mentalhealthmatters

  • . 🤰 PREGNANCY LOSS is a loss, accept it and move forward🤰 . Since a lot of u asked me about my miscarriage. Here is my story on how i handled it!😊 . A special thanks to my husband @pradeep.mylsamy and my whole family❤ . A very big thanks to @dr.karthikakarthik @ksrupalatha @anupama.vriksham for the emotional and medical Guidance, for tolerating all my silly questions that I asked you. Thank you so much it meant a lot🤗❤ . Last but not the least I thank my friends for being there for me🤗 love u guys @BGz . I have tried to be short n crisp kindly watch the whole video and please excuse me for the background noise.😊 . #baby #babygirl #babiesofinstagram #babiesofindia #mom #mombloggers #chennaiblogger #tirupurblogger #motherhood #babiesindiaofficial #babiesgalaxy #babiesenthusiasts #babiesofinsta #cutiesofinstagram #babiesvilla #coimbatore #tirupur #chennai #pollachi #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancyloss #acceptance #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagematters @mom_support_mom @miscarriage.stories @infantlosssupport @miscarriagematters @__crystal__kay__

    . 🤰 PREGNANCY LOSS is a loss, accept it and move forward🤰 . Since a lot of u asked me about my miscarriage. Here is my story on how i handled it!😊 . A special thanks to my husband @pradeep.mylsamy and my whole family❤ . A very big thanks to @dr.karthikakarthik @ksrupalatha @anupama.vriksham for the emotional and medical Guidance, for tolerating all my silly questions that I asked you. Thank you so much it meant a lot🤗❤ . Last but not the least I thank my friends for being there for me🤗 love u guys @bgz . I have tried to be short n crisp kindly watch the whole video and please excuse me for the background noise.😊 .#baby #babygirl #babiesofinstagram #babiesofindia #mom #mombloggers #chennaiblogger #tirupurblogger #motherhood #babiesindiaofficial #babiesgalaxy #babiesenthusiasts #babiesofinsta #cutiesofinstagram #babiesvilla #coimbatore #tirupur #chennai #pollachi #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #pregnancylossawareness #pregnancyloss #acceptance #miscarriagesurvivor #miscarriagematters @mom_support_mom @miscarriage.stories @infantlosssupport @miscarriagematters @__crystal__kay__

  • a drop in the ocean a change in the weather i was praying that you and me might end up together its like wishing for rain as i stand in the desert but Im holding you closer than most cause you are my heaven ✨ this song took on a new meaning today as I thought of you, Darragh. I love you so much, and you truly are my heaven. I can’t wait to meet you one day, baby. 💙

    a drop in the ocean a change in the weather i was praying that you and me might end up together it's like wishing for rain as i stand in the desert but I'm holding you closer than most cause you are my heaven ✨ this song took on a new meaning today as I thought of you, Darragh. I love you so much, and you truly are my heaven. I can’t wait to meet you one day, baby. 💙

  • ☁️ I fell down, down, down Into this dark and lonely hole There was no one there to care about me anymore And I needed a way to climb and grab a hold of the edge You were sitting there holding a rope And well go up, up, up But Ill fly a little higher Go up in the clouds because the view is a little nicer Up here my dear It wont be long now, it wont be long now When we get back on land Well Ill never get my chance Be ready to live and itll be ripped right out of my hands And maybe someday well take a little ride Go up, up, up and everything will be just fine And well go up, up, up But Ill fly a little higher Go up in the clouds because the view is a little nicer Up here my dear It wont be long now, it wont be long now If only I had a little bit more time If only I had a little bit more time with you It could go up, up, up Then take that little ride Well sit there holding hands And everything would be just right And maybe someday Ill see you again Well float up in the clouds and well never see the end Well go up, up, up But Ill fly a little higher Go up in the clouds because the view is a little nicer Up here my dear It wont be long now, it wont be long now 🎵: clouds by zach sobiech

    ☁️ I fell down, down, down Into this dark and lonely hole There was no one there to care about me anymore And I needed a way to climb and grab a hold of the edge You were sitting there holding a rope And we'll go up, up, up But I'll fly a little higher Go up in the clouds because the view is a little nicer Up here my dear It won't be long now, it won't be long now When we get back on land Well I'll never get my chance Be ready to live and it'll be ripped right out of my hands And maybe someday we'll take a little ride Go up, up, up and everything will be just fine And we'll go up, up, up But I'll fly a little higher Go up in the clouds because the view is a little nicer Up here my dear It won't be long now, it won't be long now If only I had a little bit more time If only I had a little bit more time with you It could go up, up, up Then take that little ride We'll sit there holding hands And everything would be just right And maybe someday I'll see you again We'll float up in the clouds and we'll never see the end We'll go up, up, up But I'll fly a little higher Go up in the clouds because the view is a little nicer Up here my dear It won't be long now, it won't be long now 🎵: clouds by zach sobiech

  • Dear Darragh, Last night on our walk, there was another beautiful sunset that made me think of you. You’re always on my mind and on my heart; in moments like these, I feel you a little more strongly. You truly are my sunshine, and I love you so much. I miss you so much. There’s not much else to say. Love you, baby. 💙 love, mom

    Dear Darragh, Last night on our walk, there was another beautiful sunset that made me think of you. You’re always on my mind and on my heart; in moments like these, I feel you a little more strongly. You truly are my sunshine, and I love you so much. I miss you so much. There’s not much else to say. Love you, baby. 💙 love, mom

  • 🌿1 month on Insta 🌿 Yesterday marked one month of this little Instagram account. I never thought I’d be sharing so much but I am loving posting a bit more of my life. I hope you are enjoying it too 🙈 and maybe picking up some tips along the way! Posting about how I use my oils and other changes I’m making in my house and life to decrease toxins and help the environment is so fun for me! Still a long way to go but just getting started is worth so much. And being able to see what everyone else is doing gives lots of inspiration. I have met so many lovely ladies because of my oils - ladies sharing wisdom, encouragement, love and of course diffuser and roller recipes!! Sharing more about my faith is also something I hadn’t planned on doing but I hope those Sunday posts are of value to someone! I may not have 10000000 of followers (hey maybe someday 🤷‍♀️) but I’m so thankful for each follower I do have. Thank you for giving me this space to share. One of my fave wedding photos from almost a year ago (!!) time goes so fast! . . . . #northernireland #essentialoils #oilsroutine #naturalskincare #makingchanges #ecoswaps #oilylife #essentialoils101 #lifeafterloss #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #stillamama #griefsupport #faith #naturalcleaning #lowtox #ihaveanoilforthat #youngliving #younglivinguk #thispieceofmine

    🌿1 month on Insta 🌿 Yesterday marked one month of this little Instagram account. I never thought I’d be sharing so much but I am loving posting a bit more of my life. I hope you are enjoying it too 🙈 and maybe picking up some tips along the way! Posting about how I use my oils and other changes I’m making in my house and life to decrease toxins and help the environment is so fun for me! Still a long way to go but just getting started is worth so much. And being able to see what everyone else is doing gives lots of inspiration. I have met so many lovely ladies because of my oils - ladies sharing wisdom, encouragement, love and of course diffuser and roller recipes!! Sharing more about my faith is also something I hadn’t planned on doing but I hope those Sunday posts are of value to someone! I may not have 10000000 of followers (hey maybe someday 🤷‍♀️) but I’m so thankful for each follower I do have. Thank you for giving me this space to share. One of my fave wedding photos from almost a year ago (!!) time goes so fast! . . . .#northernireland #essentialoils #oilsroutine #naturalskincare #makingchanges #ecoswaps #oilylife #essentialoils101 #lifeafterloss #miscarriageawareness #miscarriagesupport #stillamama #griefsupport #faith #naturalcleaning #lowtox #ihaveanoilforthat #youngliving #younglivinguk #thispieceofmine

  • Dear Darragh, This is your dad. He picked out this outfit for you shortly after we found out about you. It was August 2019, and we were living in Sevilla. It’s a city we miss for many reasons, but one of the most important ones is this: You lived here! We loved you here. You were alive here. He talked to my stomach, to you, in our apartment on Calle Infantes. He told you he loved you and he meant it. With his whole heart. Your dad was meant to be a dad, and you made him one. 💙 He’s been wonderful from the start, but ever since you, he’s changed. Something shifted and I like to believe that it’s partly because of you. You’ve inspired him. You’ve opened his heart, and mine, in ways we couldn’t have imagined. I wish today was the Father’s Day we pictured when you were safe in my belly in Spain. I wish you were wearing this outfit today. It probably would’ve fit you by now. I wish we were kissing your cheeks and holding you close. We miss you so much, baby. But the distance doesn’t change how much we love you. We love you to Sevilla and back, times infinity and beyond. You are our sunshine. ☀️ love, mom

    Dear Darragh, This is your dad. He picked out this outfit for you shortly after we found out about you. It was August 2019, and we were living in Sevilla. It’s a city we miss for many reasons, but one of the most important ones is this: You lived here! We loved you here. You were alive here. He talked to my stomach, to you, in our apartment on Calle Infantes. He told you he loved you and he meant it. With his whole heart. Your dad was meant to be a dad, and you made him one. 💙 He’s been wonderful from the start, but ever since you, he’s changed. Something shifted and I like to believe that it’s partly because of you. You’ve inspired him. You’ve opened his heart, and mine, in ways we couldn’t have imagined. I wish today was the Father’s Day we pictured when you were safe in my belly in Spain. I wish you were wearing this outfit today. It probably would’ve fit you by now. I wish we were kissing your cheeks and holding you close. We miss you so much, baby. But the distance doesn’t change how much we love you. We love you to Sevilla and back, times infinity and beyond. You are our sunshine. ☀️ love, mom




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